So tired.
I'm sitting here at the computer, exhausted. I don't know why I do this to myself. I stay up until 2 am thinking about random things... my mind races and I can't find the will to shut it off and get some god damn sleep.
So, I've discovered something and I'm really excited to tell.. you? myself? Here it is... life is messy. Life is a random jumble of shit that you have to walk through and try to organize.... BUT DON'T!! No, don't. Don't try to organize it, because you'll fail. You'll fail over and over and over again. Just walk and keep your chin up.
If you could see my face, I am smiling from ear to ear right now. This is such a relief for me. A big sigh of relief.
All of my life I've tried to organize and make my little life perfect. All of my ducks had to be in a row, a perfectly little perfect straight row. But not anymore. I can relax and know that I can plan for today and not worry about tomorrow. That I can live life one day at a time and know that everything is going to be just fine. I know that I can fuck up every now and again.(Before, in my mind, fucking up was NEVER EVER,EVER and option). Now I've come to know that this is the ultimate truth: all I have to do to keep on breathing is to pick myself up and try again.
I have a family that supports me and is proud of me! I have a boyfriend that loves me for who I am, and we're doing great! I have a roof over my head and food on my table! I'm a college student is just now discovering herself for who she really is: A young woman who has so much potential and has only accessed the potential that is in her pinky finger. A young woman who doesn't give a shit about anyone's opinion of her, because she knows that she's strong and can do anything she desieres. A young woman who doesn't have to finish college in just 4 years to feel like a success. A young woman who can take her time and enjoy life.
I love this! I just realized this today. Its very exciting!
Failure is a far better teacher than most success. You learn. And boy did I learn a lot.
I know, I sound like a crazy person. But I feel wonderful.
I'm going to end on a happy note. My previous entry, the one where I call myself a pessimist, I don't know that girl anymore. Its amazing to know that you can change everything with your attitude.
2010 is going to be a great year. I will make accomplishments. I will succeed. I may trip up sometimes, but I will try again.
Good bye 2009, you brought me a lot of heartache, but you're almost over, baby! I'm going to enjoy that last days of 2009, and then bid you fucking adue!!
Good night :D
So, I've discovered something and I'm really excited to tell.. you? myself? Here it is... life is messy. Life is a random jumble of shit that you have to walk through and try to organize.... BUT DON'T!! No, don't. Don't try to organize it, because you'll fail. You'll fail over and over and over again. Just walk and keep your chin up.
If you could see my face, I am smiling from ear to ear right now. This is such a relief for me. A big sigh of relief.
All of my life I've tried to organize and make my little life perfect. All of my ducks had to be in a row, a perfectly little perfect straight row. But not anymore. I can relax and know that I can plan for today and not worry about tomorrow. That I can live life one day at a time and know that everything is going to be just fine. I know that I can fuck up every now and again.(Before, in my mind, fucking up was NEVER EVER,EVER and option). Now I've come to know that this is the ultimate truth: all I have to do to keep on breathing is to pick myself up and try again.
I have a family that supports me and is proud of me! I have a boyfriend that loves me for who I am, and we're doing great! I have a roof over my head and food on my table! I'm a college student is just now discovering herself for who she really is: A young woman who has so much potential and has only accessed the potential that is in her pinky finger. A young woman who doesn't give a shit about anyone's opinion of her, because she knows that she's strong and can do anything she desieres. A young woman who doesn't have to finish college in just 4 years to feel like a success. A young woman who can take her time and enjoy life.
I love this! I just realized this today. Its very exciting!
Failure is a far better teacher than most success. You learn. And boy did I learn a lot.
I know, I sound like a crazy person. But I feel wonderful.
I'm going to end on a happy note. My previous entry, the one where I call myself a pessimist, I don't know that girl anymore. Its amazing to know that you can change everything with your attitude.
2010 is going to be a great year. I will make accomplishments. I will succeed. I may trip up sometimes, but I will try again.
Good bye 2009, you brought me a lot of heartache, but you're almost over, baby! I'm going to enjoy that last days of 2009, and then bid you fucking adue!!
Good night :D