For you father:
Because Of You
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break, the way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far
Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to find it hard to trust, not only me,
but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid
I lose my way, and its not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry, because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with
I watched you die, I heard you cry, every night in your sleep.
I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me.
You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain.
And now I cry in the middle of the night, doin the same damn thing
Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life, because its empty
Because of you, I am afraid
Because of you?
Because of you?
Seven months ago, this was how I felt towards life and it was all because of my father. I wouldn't allow myself to trust a soul because of the way he treated my
mother and the way he treated me. Seven months ago I was debating over whether or not to stay with one boy who did not know how to treat a girl or to try something new,
someone new. Part of me, wanted to stray away from new because I was scared since I didn't know what to expect. The other part of me, wanted to stray away from old because
I knew I deserved so much better. However, I always felt that I was bound to get hurt anyway so I felt that it didn't even matter. Seven months later, I could never be happier. I took
a leap of faith and tried someone new and not a day goes by that I regret it. Loving this person has taught me many many things. The most important, however, is that you we are
all going to meet several new people throughout our lives...some may hurt us, some may not. But it is not fair for all of us to hold ourselves back from the greatest thing just
because we MAY get hurt.
I can never say this enough to this person but Ignacio Javier Maculet.:
you are my everything
you complete me
You are my best friend
my boyfriend
and the love of my life
I love you with all of my heart
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