it is only 3 small words
i am back from burns. it is a cute little town.
i dont know why it is so hard for me tell him what he means to me. when he asks if it ok with me that we be just friends, why cant i tell him that i want to be more. why cant i tell him that i have friends that are guys and it isnt the same with him. i dont sit up at night thinking about davey, i dont think about joe every minute of every day. shane isnt the first thing i think about when i wake up....but he is. i think of him all the time, i want to be with him, hold him, touch him, taste him. i dont know why i cant tell him that though. saying goodbye to him evey time we talk on the phone is so gut-wrenching. i could talk to him forever. i dont know how much longer i can go on pretending to not care. i dont know how many more nights i can cry my self to sleep. i cant go on pretending that he doesnt hold my heart.
i dont know why it is so hard for me tell him what he means to me. when he asks if it ok with me that we be just friends, why cant i tell him that i want to be more. why cant i tell him that i have friends that are guys and it isnt the same with him. i dont sit up at night thinking about davey, i dont think about joe every minute of every day. shane isnt the first thing i think about when i wake up....but he is. i think of him all the time, i want to be with him, hold him, touch him, taste him. i dont know why i cant tell him that though. saying goodbye to him evey time we talk on the phone is so gut-wrenching. i could talk to him forever. i dont know how much longer i can go on pretending to not care. i dont know how many more nights i can cry my self to sleep. i cant go on pretending that he doesnt hold my heart.