the day i found a penny
I dont know when the last time i have updated, but its not like anyone reads these things that i write you know.
As of this moment, you could say life is somewhat beatiful to me and im slowly letting down that wall i have built up for the past two years, because im not scared anymore. My life is in motion at this very second as i sit and stare at this blinking screen. and right at this very moment so many thoughts of my life are swimming endlessly around in what feels like my hollow brain. as the school year is coming to a complete end, i feel as if i have learned a lot from aug, up until now. Life has been a blurr, when i look back at all the memories i wanted to keep, i now just want to throw out. i have no room left. Ive grown up a little more. I have come to the dramatic realization of what exactly a friendship means. Ive lost a lot of ppl throught the course of this year and it has left a hole in my heart. The people who have vanished completly out of my life have taken that piece with them. I cant rely on anyone but myself, because for the rest of my life here on earth i will live with myself and only myself. people that i have held close to my heart, have broken it and they may never mend it. My life is not a standstill and nor will it ever be and nor do i want it to be. Life has taught me lessons. this past year my godmother died, and as i was a standing outside with the wind in my face and my too big sunglasses covering tears, i realized how fragile life was and how i needed to live every second, despite certain circumstances. And the sad thing was that i hardly knew my godmother, but yet the connection would always be there. Even after she had died she had taught me a lesson about life. And the only memory i have of her is the day she was smiling at my grandpa's mothers house. that day in summer she was in complete pain but yet she smiled.
this is so random. and this deff does not make sense, only if u knew me.
i have learned that love will never be simple and love will never be like the movies. ive learned about myself in such a short amount of time with the help of him, with the help of Nat.
my heart feels like filling this blank computer screen with all of my thoughts, but sadly i am in school and the bell is going to ring.
my mind is in a jumble. and thoughts of the people in my life are slowly confusing me if that makes sense.
i have been dreaming about penguins and death for some reason, i dont know why.
As of this moment, you could say life is somewhat beatiful to me and im slowly letting down that wall i have built up for the past two years, because im not scared anymore. My life is in motion at this very second as i sit and stare at this blinking screen. and right at this very moment so many thoughts of my life are swimming endlessly around in what feels like my hollow brain. as the school year is coming to a complete end, i feel as if i have learned a lot from aug, up until now. Life has been a blurr, when i look back at all the memories i wanted to keep, i now just want to throw out. i have no room left. Ive grown up a little more. I have come to the dramatic realization of what exactly a friendship means. Ive lost a lot of ppl throught the course of this year and it has left a hole in my heart. The people who have vanished completly out of my life have taken that piece with them. I cant rely on anyone but myself, because for the rest of my life here on earth i will live with myself and only myself. people that i have held close to my heart, have broken it and they may never mend it. My life is not a standstill and nor will it ever be and nor do i want it to be. Life has taught me lessons. this past year my godmother died, and as i was a standing outside with the wind in my face and my too big sunglasses covering tears, i realized how fragile life was and how i needed to live every second, despite certain circumstances. And the sad thing was that i hardly knew my godmother, but yet the connection would always be there. Even after she had died she had taught me a lesson about life. And the only memory i have of her is the day she was smiling at my grandpa's mothers house. that day in summer she was in complete pain but yet she smiled.
this is so random. and this deff does not make sense, only if u knew me.
i have learned that love will never be simple and love will never be like the movies. ive learned about myself in such a short amount of time with the help of him, with the help of Nat.
my heart feels like filling this blank computer screen with all of my thoughts, but sadly i am in school and the bell is going to ring.
my mind is in a jumble. and thoughts of the people in my life are slowly confusing me if that makes sense.
i have been dreaming about penguins and death for some reason, i dont know why.