I fought and I won
So to continue with my story from before....
I didn't see Mike again until the super bowl, we had both been invited over by seperate people who didn't know that the other had invited Mike and I. In my heart I wanted to see him so bad, but in my mind I wanted to stay as far away from him as possible. I was giving him time and space to think, the reason why? Not but two days before I was so lonley and misrable that I did what most people shouldn't do, I wrote him an e-mail. In said e-mail I explained how I knew, just knew that he didn't tell me everything, how much I missed him and how I wanted him to tell me it was over for good and that we stood no chance of getting back together. If I though that there was even a chance that we could I would never move on and I really needed to.
Well Mike was grown up enough to e-mail me back and tell me the whole truth (which has become private), I shot back with a counter argument poking holes in his reason why he left. We ended the e-mail chain with him asking what do we do now?
So super bowl he arrives and he is sick, I am sick and we both look misrable, funny enough he picks the closest area to sit by me and I catch him throwing glances my way the whole night. I try not to talk to him since I really didn' t know what to say. Finally the game was over and I asked him to come next door so we could talk. We sat on the couch confessing how much we missed each other and slowly oh so slowly we started to hold hands. It was a sign, I just knew that we could work things out but things needed to be changed. We talked of many things that night and he left with a request of a months time to work things out in him mind.
2 weeks went by, we spoke every now and then, some e-mails were sent back and forth and by the 3 weeks he asked if he could talk to me after visiting alon one afternoon. I invited him in and the talked turned into dinner and a movie which lead to plans to try dating again. We "dated" for a 1 1/2 weeks before it turned into BF and GF again.
I am just so happy I do not really know how to express it, I was given a chance to get my love back. I fought for it and I won, yes there are things I need to work on (which I am) and there are things he needs to work on but we are doing it together.
People can change!
I didn't see Mike again until the super bowl, we had both been invited over by seperate people who didn't know that the other had invited Mike and I. In my heart I wanted to see him so bad, but in my mind I wanted to stay as far away from him as possible. I was giving him time and space to think, the reason why? Not but two days before I was so lonley and misrable that I did what most people shouldn't do, I wrote him an e-mail. In said e-mail I explained how I knew, just knew that he didn't tell me everything, how much I missed him and how I wanted him to tell me it was over for good and that we stood no chance of getting back together. If I though that there was even a chance that we could I would never move on and I really needed to.
Well Mike was grown up enough to e-mail me back and tell me the whole truth (which has become private), I shot back with a counter argument poking holes in his reason why he left. We ended the e-mail chain with him asking what do we do now?
So super bowl he arrives and he is sick, I am sick and we both look misrable, funny enough he picks the closest area to sit by me and I catch him throwing glances my way the whole night. I try not to talk to him since I really didn' t know what to say. Finally the game was over and I asked him to come next door so we could talk. We sat on the couch confessing how much we missed each other and slowly oh so slowly we started to hold hands. It was a sign, I just knew that we could work things out but things needed to be changed. We talked of many things that night and he left with a request of a months time to work things out in him mind.
2 weeks went by, we spoke every now and then, some e-mails were sent back and forth and by the 3 weeks he asked if he could talk to me after visiting alon one afternoon. I invited him in and the talked turned into dinner and a movie which lead to plans to try dating again. We "dated" for a 1 1/2 weeks before it turned into BF and GF again.
I am just so happy I do not really know how to express it, I was given a chance to get my love back. I fought for it and I won, yes there are things I need to work on (which I am) and there are things he needs to work on but we are doing it together.
People can change!