hey world. where are you?

[ally9704]

lately ive been in a funk, and for the life of me i cant bring myself out of it. im so happy with kt. i really am. im still struggling with jay. i love him i do its just im beyond impatient and really prolly am to immature for a kid still. it bothers me, alot. i dont want for him to grow up and not like me. i want a great relationship with him. i just feel so distant.

i feel distant alot lately. my past keeps popping up and its bugging me. my sister is out of control and lost her damn mind. if my dad was alive, he'd have a heart attack.

i just need summer to get here. some nice weather and some sunshine. =]