there's nothing i can say. there's nothing left to do.
i was going to post this on tumblr, but i've gotten some new followers in the last couple of days and i don't want to be all depressing. idk. i still might. i just need to get it out somewhere.
i miss kyle.
so much.
sometimes it just hits me really hard that he's gone...out of nowhere, a random memory will pop into my head, and it almost knocks me over backwards. all of the little things that i took for granted...
all of those mondays and wednesdays in the office, spring 2010
when i went there after irish history and before psych
and hung out with kyle and obi and alex and whoever else
but...kyle
that day that i listened to "pay attention" and sorted out tapes
and talked to him
same day that he and alex and matt were trying to make engineering stuff (decks and computers) work possibly?
my god
i took it all for granted
all of spring 2010
LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT BAGEL POPPERS
sitting there with his headphones on trying to get work done
millions of peaches, peaches for free
i never could have imagined that a year later he would be gone
and before that
when i told him about alex
because who the hell else could i tell?
i would have been made fun of for ages
but never from kyle
he always listened
no matter what
he was there
and he encouraged me to go for it
"how's it going...you know, life, liberty, and the pursuit of alex"
he thought it was adorable
:)
i could always count on him
and when alex and i finally got together, he was the first to know
and he thought it was great
he always wanted the best for me
for all of us in stn
and i never thought about it
until he was gone.
fuck.
it's just that lately i feel so damn lonely when i think of you.
i miss kyle.
so much.
sometimes it just hits me really hard that he's gone...out of nowhere, a random memory will pop into my head, and it almost knocks me over backwards. all of the little things that i took for granted...
all of those mondays and wednesdays in the office, spring 2010
when i went there after irish history and before psych
and hung out with kyle and obi and alex and whoever else
but...kyle
that day that i listened to "pay attention" and sorted out tapes
and talked to him
same day that he and alex and matt were trying to make engineering stuff (decks and computers) work possibly?
my god
i took it all for granted
all of spring 2010
LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT BAGEL POPPERS
sitting there with his headphones on trying to get work done
millions of peaches, peaches for free
i never could have imagined that a year later he would be gone
and before that
when i told him about alex
because who the hell else could i tell?
i would have been made fun of for ages
but never from kyle
he always listened
no matter what
he was there
and he encouraged me to go for it
"how's it going...you know, life, liberty, and the pursuit of alex"
he thought it was adorable
:)
i could always count on him
and when alex and i finally got together, he was the first to know
and he thought it was great
he always wanted the best for me
for all of us in stn
and i never thought about it
until he was gone.
fuck.
it's just that lately i feel so damn lonely when i think of you.