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i was looking through picture folders from 2008 trying to find if i took a picture of the crazy Z-shaped bug bites i had on my stomach at one point. apparently i didn't, but i found something else instead...
it's a video i took in august of 2008. rob and i are at the beach in milford. it starts with shots of the waves and of people wading in the water, then i turn to rob, who has just figured out how to take videos on his phone. we both exclaim "oh heyyy" a few times, laughing at how ridiculous it is to be recording videos of each other recording videos. while rob fiddles with his phone, i turn back to the water, and then turn the camera on myself, remarking that i forgot that i was still recording, mouthing "i'm so stupid!"
i grab rob, saying "hey! YOU!" as i aim the camera at the two of us. rob starts to say that he's trying to send the video, but before he can finish, i pull him in for a kiss. we break apart briefly before deciding to kiss again. we pull away from each other with the biggest smiles on our faces, and i stick my tongue out for the camera as the video ends.
god DAMN.
i'm over him. 100 percent. no question. but i've forced memories like that out of my head...every sweet, loving thing about our relationship...reliving something that i've tried so hard to repress for the past year is...a shock. to say the least.
i feel sick.
it's a video i took in august of 2008. rob and i are at the beach in milford. it starts with shots of the waves and of people wading in the water, then i turn to rob, who has just figured out how to take videos on his phone. we both exclaim "oh heyyy" a few times, laughing at how ridiculous it is to be recording videos of each other recording videos. while rob fiddles with his phone, i turn back to the water, and then turn the camera on myself, remarking that i forgot that i was still recording, mouthing "i'm so stupid!"
i grab rob, saying "hey! YOU!" as i aim the camera at the two of us. rob starts to say that he's trying to send the video, but before he can finish, i pull him in for a kiss. we break apart briefly before deciding to kiss again. we pull away from each other with the biggest smiles on our faces, and i stick my tongue out for the camera as the video ends.
god DAMN.
i'm over him. 100 percent. no question. but i've forced memories like that out of my head...every sweet, loving thing about our relationship...reliving something that i've tried so hard to repress for the past year is...a shock. to say the least.
i feel sick.