"Just Because You're At Fault, It Doesn't Make You A Victim"

[allxwexknowx]

contradictory words.
fake eyes.
emotionless mannequins.

is this what I am destined to be once I set foot into that classroom?
I have no idea what there is to become of me.

but today has been an emotional roller-coaster.
and not a very fun one at that.

I've gone to both polar extremities and back again.
I was so happy to talk about Powerspace with Alannah.
then I was sad when talking about "him" (I can't say. sorry.)
so sad, in fact, I began to cry.
I was happy to talk to my friends and hang out with Stephanie.
and so angry when my mother began to rag on me for shit.

what the hell is going to happen to my brain under
the combining force of pressure and [in]sanity?
*sigh* I guess we'll have to wait and see.

shall we have some poetry? [that rhymed ^_^]

"I've learned that if I want to be loved, I have to fall in love.
But I also learned, it's not as graceful as a dove
I know now that this strange emotion
meant only a lifetime of devotion
with feelings range as far as the ocean
moving only in slow-motion"

<3
William