"i guess its nobody's fault now but my own"
i am completely confused, analytic, reluctant, and nervous, all the time.
i am unable to focus and i am not making valid enough contributions for anyone's benefit.
i am feeling calm, internally violent and vehemntly saddened all at once.
i am scared of uncertainty, but i'll welcome it.
i am always going to unintentionally smother the people and things i care for, and feel i will never be good enough.
i am scared i will never be loved again. i think that's what scares me the most, that and the fact i might just be there already, by myself.
i am 'in it' right now.
"why do i want so badly
the things that will leave me empty?
being myself will never be enough
and i'll keep my eyes down
until i feel safe again around you"
i am unable to focus and i am not making valid enough contributions for anyone's benefit.
i am feeling calm, internally violent and vehemntly saddened all at once.
i am scared of uncertainty, but i'll welcome it.
i am always going to unintentionally smother the people and things i care for, and feel i will never be good enough.
i am scared i will never be loved again. i think that's what scares me the most, that and the fact i might just be there already, by myself.
i am 'in it' right now.
"why do i want so badly
the things that will leave me empty?
being myself will never be enough
and i'll keep my eyes down
until i feel safe again around you"