she broke away
life fucking bums me out.
the search for someone meaningful and or special to spend my time and cuddle with is definately on hiatus. i find myself sizing up everyone i meet, but essentially, if i didn't i'd be getting involved with a guy who has a girlfriend who is a dirtbag, or a guy who reminds me of a horrible episode of my freshman past involving someone's cock in my face. yeah. awesome. i've even found myself considering falling back on old habits which is probably worse that the new guys i've met. all i can think of is wonder about that kid last summer that disappeared. odd. and could have had potential for greatness :/
work just makes me think about how i don't want to be alone. everyone that is a resident there is miserable because their family and loved ones aren't with them. even if most of them could remember these people, they would still rather have them there. when i go into work i try to be happy but this constant idea of loneliness til death makes me so sad. so then i go boy crazy and thus the circle of a ridiculous waste of my time continues.
i gave cvs my two weeks notice. next tuesday will be my last night. i'll miss that place. the coworkers, playing hangman, violating hippa, filling my own scripts, etc. too bad. everything must end sometime.
i received a letter from baystate written by the woman i've been so frustrated with because she hasn't returned my calls. she thanked me to applying to the program i've been trying to get information on, which i never did apply because she never gave me the information, but told me i have not been selected and to try back later, which i had been hearing since july, thanks lady. but that means my contacts are doing something right i guess. lizz- my dad gave me that info from your mom, i'm calling her tomorrow and seeing if she can help me out. thank her for me!
school sucks and its slow starting to kick my ass. i can only stay ahead of myself so much only to find there's something else i need to get done. its such a bitch.
however, i can't possibly stay bummed out and depressed always, because that's not the lindsay we know and like. so things that aren't bumming me out:
-working with tyler last night
-renee heartfelt in cambridge with russ friday night. meeting up with wynn and mckenna there.
-getting a $403.61 check from work today.
-my straight hair.
-my ipod. yet.
-seeing my niece this weekend.
-picking up kevin next weekend. if he'll let me.
-'clean cotton' smell in my olds achieva.
-lindsay
the search for someone meaningful and or special to spend my time and cuddle with is definately on hiatus. i find myself sizing up everyone i meet, but essentially, if i didn't i'd be getting involved with a guy who has a girlfriend who is a dirtbag, or a guy who reminds me of a horrible episode of my freshman past involving someone's cock in my face. yeah. awesome. i've even found myself considering falling back on old habits which is probably worse that the new guys i've met. all i can think of is wonder about that kid last summer that disappeared. odd. and could have had potential for greatness :/
work just makes me think about how i don't want to be alone. everyone that is a resident there is miserable because their family and loved ones aren't with them. even if most of them could remember these people, they would still rather have them there. when i go into work i try to be happy but this constant idea of loneliness til death makes me so sad. so then i go boy crazy and thus the circle of a ridiculous waste of my time continues.
i gave cvs my two weeks notice. next tuesday will be my last night. i'll miss that place. the coworkers, playing hangman, violating hippa, filling my own scripts, etc. too bad. everything must end sometime.
i received a letter from baystate written by the woman i've been so frustrated with because she hasn't returned my calls. she thanked me to applying to the program i've been trying to get information on, which i never did apply because she never gave me the information, but told me i have not been selected and to try back later, which i had been hearing since july, thanks lady. but that means my contacts are doing something right i guess. lizz- my dad gave me that info from your mom, i'm calling her tomorrow and seeing if she can help me out. thank her for me!
school sucks and its slow starting to kick my ass. i can only stay ahead of myself so much only to find there's something else i need to get done. its such a bitch.
however, i can't possibly stay bummed out and depressed always, because that's not the lindsay we know and like. so things that aren't bumming me out:
-working with tyler last night
-renee heartfelt in cambridge with russ friday night. meeting up with wynn and mckenna there.
-getting a $403.61 check from work today.
-my straight hair.
-my ipod. yet.
-seeing my niece this weekend.
-picking up kevin next weekend. if he'll let me.
-'clean cotton' smell in my olds achieva.
-lindsay