hatred i never thought i could have

[allxeyesonme]

her feelings? her feelings? you first tear apart my family, never letting me understand what its like to have your parents living under the same roof full of love and happiness. then you abuse me my whole life-physically and mentally- make me feel like shit for being born, fight with her every day because i was there and wasnt your child. tell me every time that if it came down to it she would choose you over me, her daughter. then you kick me out and prove it. she did chose you over me. you, the person she supposedly doesnt even love. she wanted to work on me moving back in, yet two weeks after i left, my room was turned into her office! yah, really working on it huh? i get yelled at for having a relationship with my father, for the first time in my entire life we have a relationship and thats a bad thing? you can do anything you want to me..it doesnt matter because im the bad guy here. she no longer resembles the woman i loved with all my heart. i no longer know her. thanks,its what you always wanted. we are out of eachothers lives. its official now.

your marriage should get along just fine now, since i was the subject of all your fights. you fucking jealous, alcoholic bastard. i hate that i have wasted so many tears on you, you dont deserve them. i hope you die and i mean it. i would cry tears of fucking joy then-those you would deserve.

dont ever fucking call me again asking if i care about her becuase shes going crazy. if you cared about her even a little bit you wouldnt have been the way you were the whole time. the root of this is you. you won. you pushed away something she loved and loved her back to the fullest extent becuase youre too big of an asshole for your own son to love, he ran away. i get it now. if you cant have yours, she cant have hers.

thanks.