Ugh
Interesting weekend! Finally starting to see improvement in my foot after surgery, so that has me pretty excited! Hoping to be able to ski this year.
Went to see Jackass 2 with Matt friday, then went to the Varsity with him and Scott to bullshit and drink. It was awesome!
Saturday is where it gets interesting. Scott came by and we watched MSU lose to Illinois...I didn't see that coming. Then I met up with my ex, her mom, and her mom's husband. Didn't know what to expect really, but I was glad I went. I miss seeing her mom because she is the coolest ever!
Went back to my ex's place with everyone to watch UM win. That was good. Then, her mom and the husband started going at it and it went kinda sour. Nothing I could do, but I was asked to take off. No problem. Completely understandable. I was just mad that my ex was upset and there was nothing I could do. That's a terrible feeling. So, i chilled at a hotel down the block for the night because needless to say, I could not go home to Bob and Sharons considering I told them i would be out for the night drinking. The hotel didn't bother me. I think that was misunderstood in a text i sent to my ex. I said this sucks, but i will live. I didn't want to be in a hotel, i would've rather talked with her a little more and hung out obviously but that couldn't happen. I thought the part that sucked is that her mom decided to bring up shit like this in front of people who didn't need to hear or see it, and also did it in her daughter's apartment. I felt that was kinda rude and I wish I could've been there to support her. Oh well.
Speaking of which, there is the story of my ex. She finally wanted to hang out with me. Yesterday was her DD'ing, so that's not really hanging out, but earlier in the week we had coffee and got to catch up a bit. It was actually enjoyable. I was apprehensive because a lot of other things had happened, but it went real well. Yesterday though, she invited another ex over with his current gf. Didn't understand that, but I guess they're still friends. That's great i guess. But he called once he left with girl issues to talk with my ex about. Pretty strange that she had 2 ex's over.
I guess the wierd thing to me is I don't know what her intentions are for me. Does she just want to be friends, does she want to get back together, does she want me completely out of her life?????? If she just wants to be friends, that's great. I enjoy her company. If she wants me out of her life completely, well i won't like it much, but I guess i'll have to respect her wishes. If she wants to get back together, I don't know what i'll say. Other people around me are saying I should stay away from that situation, but at the same time, when i'm around her I feel like everything is perfect and i'm a better person. Obviously yesterday I was a drunken case, but I still felt that a little bit that nothing could go wrong.
I don't want to push the issue, but at the same time I want to know what to expect. I don't like surprises when it comes to instances like this. I just want her to lay it all out there and let me know where she stands so I don't have to sit around wondering. Less thinking on this is better considering i have 5 classes and a job to worry about as well. On top of all of that crap, i'm also thinking about moving after next summer. I want to move to the Atlanta area. My cousin said she'll let me stay 6 months free of rent to get on my feet. Definitely my best option after graduation. I guess there will be a lot of answering to expect in the next couple weeks.
Keep it real!
Went to see Jackass 2 with Matt friday, then went to the Varsity with him and Scott to bullshit and drink. It was awesome!
Saturday is where it gets interesting. Scott came by and we watched MSU lose to Illinois...I didn't see that coming. Then I met up with my ex, her mom, and her mom's husband. Didn't know what to expect really, but I was glad I went. I miss seeing her mom because she is the coolest ever!
Went back to my ex's place with everyone to watch UM win. That was good. Then, her mom and the husband started going at it and it went kinda sour. Nothing I could do, but I was asked to take off. No problem. Completely understandable. I was just mad that my ex was upset and there was nothing I could do. That's a terrible feeling. So, i chilled at a hotel down the block for the night because needless to say, I could not go home to Bob and Sharons considering I told them i would be out for the night drinking. The hotel didn't bother me. I think that was misunderstood in a text i sent to my ex. I said this sucks, but i will live. I didn't want to be in a hotel, i would've rather talked with her a little more and hung out obviously but that couldn't happen. I thought the part that sucked is that her mom decided to bring up shit like this in front of people who didn't need to hear or see it, and also did it in her daughter's apartment. I felt that was kinda rude and I wish I could've been there to support her. Oh well.
Speaking of which, there is the story of my ex. She finally wanted to hang out with me. Yesterday was her DD'ing, so that's not really hanging out, but earlier in the week we had coffee and got to catch up a bit. It was actually enjoyable. I was apprehensive because a lot of other things had happened, but it went real well. Yesterday though, she invited another ex over with his current gf. Didn't understand that, but I guess they're still friends. That's great i guess. But he called once he left with girl issues to talk with my ex about. Pretty strange that she had 2 ex's over.
I guess the wierd thing to me is I don't know what her intentions are for me. Does she just want to be friends, does she want to get back together, does she want me completely out of her life?????? If she just wants to be friends, that's great. I enjoy her company. If she wants me out of her life completely, well i won't like it much, but I guess i'll have to respect her wishes. If she wants to get back together, I don't know what i'll say. Other people around me are saying I should stay away from that situation, but at the same time, when i'm around her I feel like everything is perfect and i'm a better person. Obviously yesterday I was a drunken case, but I still felt that a little bit that nothing could go wrong.
I don't want to push the issue, but at the same time I want to know what to expect. I don't like surprises when it comes to instances like this. I just want her to lay it all out there and let me know where she stands so I don't have to sit around wondering. Less thinking on this is better considering i have 5 classes and a job to worry about as well. On top of all of that crap, i'm also thinking about moving after next summer. I want to move to the Atlanta area. My cousin said she'll let me stay 6 months free of rent to get on my feet. Definitely my best option after graduation. I guess there will be a lot of answering to expect in the next couple weeks.
Keep it real!