buffalo soldiar
Born in America.
I cannot spell today. everything is wrongz! but im editing it. maybe i shouldnt. thatd be kinda funnish. ahahaha. well i need tot ake the dog for a wlka so ill update in about 20 minutes. holdf on.
Ok back from the walk. so i got something prickly in my shoe. it hurt. and thent his weirdo hippy old lady was following me. she was there, and then not and then there. scary. and then i just decided to go straight and keep walking until she corners me into a dark alley and kills me and then steals all my oragans. so i turned the corner onto the main road and theres a gang. anybody else wanna rape me today! so then i turned into some business complex thats a shortcut to my house. actually its longer...o well. anyways.
Yesterday was an emotional wreck day. everything, and i mean everything piled on into one day. jesus. the only thing that didnt happen was jake calling. good thing i think... so ill just tell the bold truth. i was completly and uterly depressed. id been for weeks, but yesterday was really bad. and so i really wanted to stay home from school today. so i asked my mom and she got mad at me for being sad. so i went in my room and i layed down and let my dog get on my bed and pet him.
I got up today at 6:26 and i said happy birthday to my mom and she got mad. (?) i dunno. i guess i do a lot wrong. a lot more than i should or relize i guess. or i just keep fucking up. anyways i got ready and stuff and then the car ride was silent. then right at the railroad she started talking. it really hurt my feelings and made me emotional. so i go to school fucking more depressed.
So i get to school and i was almost late. so i gave spencer a hug. i almost started crying. my eyes teared up. but i didnt him to see me cry. so i just kinda walked away. i dunno, just to know how i much i hurt him yesterday made me feel really bad, and then he just forgave me for it all so quickly.
In french i was really not in the mood. so i laced my shoes. and she called on me. dirty teacher... and then we had to play this french shutes and ladders. and me and stepfanie didnt want to work. so we drew our own shutes and ladders! it was so awesome! she won 4 times in a row. dang shutes. it was so much fun though. she always makes me smile. at least temporarly. then we had another word action thing. we got basketball. so i pretended to dribble, shoot and stepfanie was the basket and we pretendned it went in and she simply goes. "swoosh" haha it was funny.
Then on the way to math we got hot tamalis. yes. and i ate one right in jaysons face in math. and he asked for one and i stuffed them all in. haha revenge! then i found the hawaiin stick. hahaha and we had to make a poster thing and i really wanted to draw a tree on the poster and they wouldnt let me! and i gave ryan my lunch. i dont know who ended up with what. lol hungry boys.
On the way to lunch i walked with lance and completly forgot stepfanie was gonna play the piano for me. sorry!!! tomorrow. its a date. but lance is funny. he is such a retard. lol
In lunch i ate like a pig. i had curly fries, strawberry milk, some of spencers pretzels and some of his powerade. sheesh. "so he pulls a giant book out" ahha that was funny. it was. then i went to health.
We watched the trauma nurse thing. i kept falling asleep! it was so boring at first. and i fell asleep and started sliding in the chair and i jerked awake and some people looked at me. ahha. then they showed some pretty nasty pictures. especially the one where the guys brains where coming out of his nose. o my gosh. one time i literally put my hand over my mouth. ick.
Then i was buying candy with stepfanie. she got a twix the one thing ive been craving. and she didnt give me any!!! and then i ws about to freeze my butt off and katie gave me her coat. nice gal. and i walked to peer tutor with spencer and he made me hit my hand on a lock. and made me feel stupid. again. oh, whats new?
In peer tutor i did cans finally! i was with ben, and this chick, and matt, and brandon, and dustin. we went all over. and i did most of it. ben is so cute. he was singing head shoulders knees and toes. at one point everyone left excpet for me and ben and i started singing with him and a girl walked by. ahah and then he told me i was skinny and beautiful. it was the cutest thing in the world. it really cheered me up. even though i dont think he knew what he was really saying. then we played out in the commons. i sat there actually. then we took them down to the bus and that one kid from french talked to me.
After school i got my shoes and sweatshirt. spencer took my sweatshirt and i switched shoes. i hated them. and spencer said i looked preppy. buttface. and we walked to the vending machine and i drank so much pop really quick. then we went outside and katie threw a crayon at ryan and didnt even get hit! so i go over to him and tell him to get here because thats not fair. so he throws a dirty lid off the ground at my hair... and then he was giving me a hug and he smushed me.
me: ow ryan your smashing my boobs!
ryan: what boobs?
me: i have boobs!!!
ryan: no you dont. you have misquito bites.
What a dick. ahah then i walked to greg and got one of his famous hugs. and he smelt so much of cologne. and then i gave ryan one and he crakced my back. then i smelt like greg for the next 3 hours. not bad. it smelt good.
So i wrapped my moms present. my dog is sick. he barfed in my room...
Well you see, im thinking. a lot. and i have not the slightest clue what to do. what so ever. sigh. man. ill either do something right and feel bad, or not do anything and feel bad. hm. shit.
Tonight im going out to dinner. im hungry. gonna go eat something.
Oh i found new pictures. post later cuz i have to go and they are being slow uploading.
Au Revoir