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It takes skill to be that skilled.
Today was full of emotions.
So last night i looked for the book but i couldnt find it. and i couldnt sleep. so i went to bed at 4:07. and then i woke up at 5:26. what is that? hour and19 minutes? pretty good. so i wake up and get ready. im done by 6:40. so i paint my nails and then do all this stuff so they are ruined but i dont even care. and then im ready and we leave.
I get to school and no one is there. so i walk around and o look at that, im behind nicole. so im praying she doesnt turn around. course she does! so i turn into a hall and i found ryan hanson. he did drugs, drank, and had sex. 12 times. lol then i found everyone else. and basicly just talked. but im hyper.
So i go into french and stepfanie saves me a seat. i got my own flippin row today. and then it is freaking dead silent and then we were writing a note and we both wrote whale penis at the same time and started cracking up. but i almost peed my pants. because we are trying to be dead quiet and not laugh and jesus, thats hard. then this huge screetch from a chair and stepfnie wrote "oops" hahahhahah and it was just so funny. then we were eating candy and she was like drooling! and then the creepy ta came over and tried to take some and we were like "o no you di int!" . and then i had to put my gum out so i put it on a wrapper and i stick another wrapper on it and stepfanie sticks on me so we are sticking it back and forth and eventually our frnech homework is covered in my green gum. hahaha! i have no IDEA what even went on in that class! then we were walking to math and she was imitating the ta and hahaha it was so funny. well. that cheered me up a bit writing about it.
a portion of the french paper with gum on it. that green thing.
In math we got our old table groups back. but chelsie wasnt there! so jacob sat down and i through his paper on the ground and told him to go away and he gives a speech on how im mean and im not even normally that mean to him! and then he kept trying to touch my papers and so i kept smacking him. then, i made the most kickass picture. it is so cool. first there is a bunny who found a carrot. and he is saying "oh look a carrot! sweetness" and then underneath a drew another and it is a evil squirel holding a nut with a jetpack on in a tree. and it shows his little home. and there is a bird above him about to sweep down and kill him. and then a leperacon underneath saying "i found me pot o' gold!" hahaha and corey was making fun of me... and jayson too. ryan was really nice today. thats cuz he was stoned out of his mind, but hey whatever. and i was talking the whole flipping time cuz i was so hyper and ms. rhee was giving me death glares. haha o well. and then i got shoved out the door!
So then i find stepfanie and she takes me into the piano room and raped me. not, hah she played some something corporate songs on the piano and a song from donny darko which is only the best song in the movie and the best movie! then i went to my locker and got my lunch and then the bathroom and i found the prettiest thing there.
In lunch me and joe split my cookies. he has new glasses. not much happened. i dont even remember it that much. oh, me and jayson had a name calling war. i wont both times. wooped him.
So in gym we played baseball. i struck out!! thats the first time in like seriosuly 4 years. i was surpirsed i sucked so much. and lance made fun of me so i told him we were over. and i got mad. and we made a scene. not really. but then we are back together. and we took some guys shirt and he told me he wants to rip my organs out and eat them. it was kinda scary... and i basicly hung out with spencer. then i took joes glasses and ran into the girls bathroom. and i stood in the doorway and he wouldnt even move. haha . then we were trying to read the brale that said "men" and for seriously 5 minutes we were arguing about if it was letters or words. i won. AHA
Then spencer walked me to ceramics and totally walked away when i was kidding and i just stood there. waiting. like an idiot. and he kept walking so i went in my classroom. and i saw him coming back out and came i out and shoved him and he walked away again. what the flip! a push of love it was. and so in ceramics i finished my plate and started on my animal. which reminds me i need to do research. and i got full credit on my notebook.
Then after school i went to my locker alone. and then i found katie and tiffany and spencer. and we talked. and then they all left. so i walked spencer to the bushes and then left. and then i was walking to the car and spencer followed me and wouldnt stop asking what was wrong and then he made my mom do it and i was annoyed.
And then i wanted to stay in the car while she went in the store and she got all mad. but i did anyways. and i was taking pictures. i got a black and white emo lookin one of me. then i came home and got online and stuff. and made a stupid fool of myself and i cant believe i keep doing that! fucking a! and then yea. sdfsd////sdfsdfh and so i went downstairs and took a 20 minute nap and spencer called and woke me up. so i went back upstairs and then i was on myspace and cassie let me have it. i was just telling her how i felt and jesus. i thought i was gonna explode from so many things going wrong. then me and chelsie connected in a way i didnt think we would.
And then jake called. and we talked. he is truly one of the only people i feel completly comfortable around and makes me feel more welcome. hes experienced in this i guess. he knows the right things to say. i invited him to the motley crue concert. he didnt want to go. so i dunno whats happening. and he got off the phone with jenny to talk to me. which means something cuz he likes her and he blew her off for me. he really does care i guess. but then he had to go. i could tell he wanted to talk to her. and i didnt really do much.
Im sick of guys thinking they know all the answers. cuz they dont. everyone is going to know a little more about something from time to time. compairing 2 COMPLETLY different things, is so wrong you dont anything about it. jake didnt know what emo was. he thought i was trying to say emotional and shorten it. dumbass.
Its so freezing in my room. im about to die of hypothermia. oo tricky word.
Tomorrow im at my dads. so no entry. im gonna go to bed. im tired.
Au Revoir