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Time is almost over. CJ leaves tomorrow and I still don't know what to do. I don't want it to be over because I am not one of the people who can just have a little fling and then forget that anything even happened. I am a person who likes relationships. I want to stay with him, but how do I know that he won't cheat on me or anything once he's in California? I mean, there are plenty of girls there that any guy would just love to get with. I don't think that I would be able to just completely trust him that much right now. If I get into a relationship with him when he is gone, I don't know if I could trust him... or myself. I just don't want us to be over. So what does a girl do? I like him a lot, and when I say a lot, I mean a whole lot. He is someone that I can see myself with in a relationship, but I'm just not sure what I want to do, or where I want the situation to go.