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It's official. I will be in Lexington at 10 on the morning of the 19th. I just bought my plan ticket yesterday and surprisingly enough, I got one that wasn't outragously priced. I only paid $265 for my ticket. I will be home for one week exactly. You better have plans for me when I get home. Oh hey, on my birthday, you know the 20th, I want to go and get a tattoo, so if you want to, will you come with me and get one done as well? You will be shocked when you see me. It's not that I have changed greatly or anything, but I do look better. I have lost a lot of weight and since I have been here, I have bought expensive clothes, you know the ones that I couldn't afford before. I still can't afford a lot of them now, but that's not stopping me from buying some expensively cute clothes.
I don't know what to do. I mean, right now I am with CJ and all, but I am not sure if I want a relationship after he leaves on Friday. We can be friends with benefits, but relationships are a good thing also. CJ is leaving the decision up to me, and you know how I am when it comes to decisions. I can't ever decide! I am not sure I want a relationship because I will be here for the next few months and in those same months, he will be at his home in Fl. until he has to go to Cal. and then before I leave here, he will be going over to Iraq. I don't know if I could handle that. I mean, I won't get to see him or anything unless we get stationed in the same town or he's riding on one of my ships. Other than that, it will be hard to see him. I just don't know if I could deal with a relationship that is so distant. What should I do?
I don't know what to do. I mean, right now I am with CJ and all, but I am not sure if I want a relationship after he leaves on Friday. We can be friends with benefits, but relationships are a good thing also. CJ is leaving the decision up to me, and you know how I am when it comes to decisions. I can't ever decide! I am not sure I want a relationship because I will be here for the next few months and in those same months, he will be at his home in Fl. until he has to go to Cal. and then before I leave here, he will be going over to Iraq. I don't know if I could handle that. I mean, I won't get to see him or anything unless we get stationed in the same town or he's riding on one of my ships. Other than that, it will be hard to see him. I just don't know if I could deal with a relationship that is so distant. What should I do?