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Oct 01, 2004 23:49

You know the feeling of when you would rather be somewhere, anywhere really, but you're not quite sure where that place you would rather be is, or even if it exist. I would want to be somewhere where the people of that region consider completely different things to be of value. For example, we look at a man who drives a new, expensive car, wears a fine made suit, can purchase pretty much anything he wants, and that is of value. It doesn't really matter how he treats his wife, or if he is a good father, or does his job to the best of his ability... but we consider him to be a product of what every American should strive for. We consider him accomplished in life. We value people like that. Now, don't get me wrong please, I think it is wonderful to have wealth and to be able to leave on a trip around the world whenever your heart feels compelled. I'm just asking you to look deeper than the surface.
I would want to be somewhere where nature has not been tainted by humans. A place where time is not rushed, it just slips by without me noticing it; I want to be somewhere where I would never need a watch. I want to be somewhere without any pressures to grow up fast. I want to live somewhere where it would be okay to stay a child at heart and I could play in the dirt and not be looked down on. I would dance in the rain, scream as loud as I wanted, and cry all at the same time, and this of course would be casual.
I want to be somewhere where there is no "normal". Normal would not exist because we would all live by being true to our souls. Each person would be completely different, therefore it would be impossible for normal to exist, and there would be no norm. We would love people so much and only wish the best for them. Our hearts would truly ache for them when something bad happened or they encountered any misfortune at all. We would find out what it truly means to love and to be loved and to be in love. Love could exist where I would want to be. Where I want to be, we could spend the day in deep meaningful conversation with one another. We would open our minds and break boundaries of what we've been told is impossible. We would find completion in things like literature, art, nature, music, relationships, God, and honesty.
I do not know if I will ever find this place. I hear my mind telling me it is impossible, that this place is only a faint dream that is too transparent to ever exist. I fear this might be true. Also, I hear my heart telling me that I will find bits of this place. I will see reflection of it when I see my mother laughing, experiencing brief moments of happiness and for just one second feeling no pressure at all. I will feel this place when I talk with my friends and find out that it doesn't take much to have the best night of my life. We will discover that this place, with the entire world trying to stop us, it is a place that we can make for ourselves. This is a place we won't find, but will create every day of our lives if we choose to. We are this place.
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