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my hearts just been broken in two, or maybe more like its shattered all over the floor right now. i know by tomorrow i will put the peices back together or at least attempt to, but it will break again soon so it doesnt matter how well the peices are even attached.
my boy friend is so fucking stupid i want to punch him in the face right now. i know he doesnt do anything to hurt any one but every thing he does effects people and this event better make him realize it or hes really going to regret it later. i want to be with him so bad and never have i been this close to someone, but he isnt exactly my ideal guy. his actions drive me insane, i cant get ahold of him im worried and hoping he is ok and i cant even talk to him when i have no idea if he is ok or not. i dont know if this continues i cant even be with him any more, this is such bull shit, and here i am once again sitting here sobbing because of a fucking guy. i wish i was a lesbian, it might be slightly easier. its bad enough that we are almost 2 hours from each other and now this, i should have known nothing this good could last. the happiness was equivalent to a blink.
i would really like to run away. i feel horrible.
my boy friend is so fucking stupid i want to punch him in the face right now. i know he doesnt do anything to hurt any one but every thing he does effects people and this event better make him realize it or hes really going to regret it later. i want to be with him so bad and never have i been this close to someone, but he isnt exactly my ideal guy. his actions drive me insane, i cant get ahold of him im worried and hoping he is ok and i cant even talk to him when i have no idea if he is ok or not. i dont know if this continues i cant even be with him any more, this is such bull shit, and here i am once again sitting here sobbing because of a fucking guy. i wish i was a lesbian, it might be slightly easier. its bad enough that we are almost 2 hours from each other and now this, i should have known nothing this good could last. the happiness was equivalent to a blink.
i would really like to run away. i feel horrible.