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today was the first day of class, painting. it was ok didnt do much but watch slides. the teacher seems cool and really open to different things. im scared though. he says he doesnt care about talent only effort, but i care about talent. if i suck then there is nothing i can do to get better. i wanna be the best, but who am i kidding. i also joined the gym today it, im soo happy i love the gym. even though the 12th street gym is like a maze, so many tiny rooms and pathways and stuff, i almost go lost. so yeah the first roomate fight today, wont be the last, but its resolved and im happy about that. i took a long nap all evening so im sure i will but up all night now, but its cool cuz tomorrow is my day off and i can sleep in. andy is gonna call me tonight im excited to really talk to him, instead of short convos when people are around. its breaking my heart seeing him feel the way he does. i just wanna fix things soo bad, but i guess life doesnt work that way, i just hope mike gets better or just has enough time to do every thing he wants to with out being cut short. but as much as i dont want to i still have a really bad feeling about things. every one should quit smoking or cut down, cuz it seems unreal that they really harm you but when you see someone that is 22 years old and has lung cancer from smoking it really makes you realize alot of things. im hoping there is some kind of higher power that will help him.