Hello World
I haven't posted since December.. But I never have anything of substance to write about. Although I have things to write about now, I don't have words to express them with other than...
I think it's safe to say.. This heartache I'm feeling is proof that I need to be a mother.
And I'm hurt that she moved away, when five years ago she's the one that begged me the most, not to move back to California. I've lost my friend, my cousin and my little sister just by losing one person. Add my god daughter to that and you might as well find me a replacement heart.
I really fucking miss them and I hope more than anything that Kaitzen doesn't forget who I am... because that would crush my heart into a million pieces. I'm not her mom but god mother has to mean something.
I think it's safe to say.. This heartache I'm feeling is proof that I need to be a mother.
And I'm hurt that she moved away, when five years ago she's the one that begged me the most, not to move back to California. I've lost my friend, my cousin and my little sister just by losing one person. Add my god daughter to that and you might as well find me a replacement heart.
I really fucking miss them and I hope more than anything that Kaitzen doesn't forget who I am... because that would crush my heart into a million pieces. I'm not her mom but god mother has to mean something.