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Once again, it's been a long minute since i've updated. life is so/so. i don't know how to describe feelings i have right now. just lots of things that have been building for months. it's a little overwhelming with stress from work and alanna not feeling good, but i have to keep going. what else can i do? i apologize now for this being so random. just thoughts in my head that i need to get out.
let's see..... i cant write my paper for my comp class. i'm just stuck. i mean, really, how hard is it to write a persuasive essay about alcohol ads and underage drinking? sounds pretty damn easy. well, it's not for me. i'm always preoccupied. fell behind in the homework and bit, and i'm struggling to get back on track. i really want to do well, and i have been. i just need to get everything in on time. and write my damn paper!!!!!
whoooo..... i guess i'm jumping on the band wagon of everyone having weird dreams. but this is nothing new to me. i always have strange dreams about the people around me. but they're getting more intense, so i know i need to talk to these people more. and it's frustrating cause people dont answer their damn phones!!!! cant even begin to tell you what kinda mood this puts me in when peopel i feel i need to talk to just wont pick up. then i'm stuck b/t wanting to call and call until they answer or not calling back for fear of being a bother. well, hopefully, today wont be as bad as yesterday and last night. i don't know how much sleep i'm gonna get today. i hope it's peaceful sleep.
as corny as it sounds, sometimes i hate being and adult. rather, being an adult with priorities. i know i slip sometimes, and i'm thankful for those friends i have ( correction) for the FAMILY i have (cat, ress, mike, keryl, and everyone) to give me reality check when i need one. it's just so stressful trying to keep the bills paid, putting up with crap at work and tryin to keep things good at home. sometimes i just wanna sit and cry. and if you all know me, you know that is a rare occurance. but i feel a crying spell in the next few days. so if i call someone outta the blue, please just bear with me. the only thing i know i do well and have no doubts about is taking care of alanna. she is my life. she is what keeps me grounded and in check. my alanna michelle. my baby.....cat's baby. lol
well, i think i'm done. sorry for all the crap, you guys. just had too much on my mind. still got a lot, but i got most of it out. love you all.
let's see..... i cant write my paper for my comp class. i'm just stuck. i mean, really, how hard is it to write a persuasive essay about alcohol ads and underage drinking? sounds pretty damn easy. well, it's not for me. i'm always preoccupied. fell behind in the homework and bit, and i'm struggling to get back on track. i really want to do well, and i have been. i just need to get everything in on time. and write my damn paper!!!!!
whoooo..... i guess i'm jumping on the band wagon of everyone having weird dreams. but this is nothing new to me. i always have strange dreams about the people around me. but they're getting more intense, so i know i need to talk to these people more. and it's frustrating cause people dont answer their damn phones!!!! cant even begin to tell you what kinda mood this puts me in when peopel i feel i need to talk to just wont pick up. then i'm stuck b/t wanting to call and call until they answer or not calling back for fear of being a bother. well, hopefully, today wont be as bad as yesterday and last night. i don't know how much sleep i'm gonna get today. i hope it's peaceful sleep.
as corny as it sounds, sometimes i hate being and adult. rather, being an adult with priorities. i know i slip sometimes, and i'm thankful for those friends i have ( correction) for the FAMILY i have (cat, ress, mike, keryl, and everyone) to give me reality check when i need one. it's just so stressful trying to keep the bills paid, putting up with crap at work and tryin to keep things good at home. sometimes i just wanna sit and cry. and if you all know me, you know that is a rare occurance. but i feel a crying spell in the next few days. so if i call someone outta the blue, please just bear with me. the only thing i know i do well and have no doubts about is taking care of alanna. she is my life. she is what keeps me grounded and in check. my alanna michelle. my baby.....cat's baby. lol
well, i think i'm done. sorry for all the crap, you guys. just had too much on my mind. still got a lot, but i got most of it out. love you all.