Hm.
Frustrating.
What should I do~
I've not a clue.
But seriously.
Things are rather confusing, generally.
Particularly when certain types of emotions are involved.
Then there's the fact that I really regret joining pit orchestra and signing up for the AP test :'D.
... they'll help in the long run, though, right? That's what I'm hoping, at least orz;. Well, mainly for the latter. That was the reason I signed up for that one. The test.
Pit orchestra is fun, but I can absolutely not play any of it perfectly. And it's supposed to be spot-on. OTL.
I'm sorry, my lack of need for at-home practice in the past years hasn't helped me develop a good practice routine.
This is why I can't actually call myself a good violinist.
Anyway~ |D..
I dunno.
I was about to head to sleep, then I decided to hop in the shower, effectively waking myself up a bit more. Which wasn't intentional, I just didn't want to deal with taking one after waking up. But it happened. And now I'm more awake.
I'm going to head to sleep after I write this, anyway, whatever else I decide to put here.
Ah, well, right. That one radio station. That reminded me of Staind. Good band. Or at least, I loved a few of their songs in particular. As I was thinking of this, I also thought of Chevelle's song "Red," I think? Which I actually ventured to purchase, at one point. Just that song. I must have liked it a lot. Then I thought of music in general from around that time of my life whenever that was.
I had kept bits of paper on which I wrote notes -- like, whatever parts of the song lyrics I could gather, so I could look up the song later. Usually about four lines or so. Or if they mentioned the artist/song name, I'd write that down.
I wrote in blue, black, red, purple, whatever color ink.
Then I thought of one song in particular, that I think I ended up writing down a couple/few times because I couldn't remember it at first. It was called "Forever" by Papa Roach. It's-- fdsalkj.
Keyboard smash is the equivalent of whatever emotions need to be expressed there, I suppose.
I kind of want to lay in bed on my iPod and look up that song and other songs/music I found around that time and just keep doing that until I fall asleep.
Actually, I think I will.
I'll probably fall asleep after a few songs, anyway.
I'm tired.
I think it's established, at least to myself, by now, that I ramble more when I'm tired. My brain doesn't bother to filter out unnecessary things.
I mean, I'm conscious enough that I wouldn't give away secrets or anything, but with talking more it's possible that I'd hint at things more.
Ah well. Good night, I suppose. I don't think anyone over here is really online right now, but regardless.
~Allure~