"I wanna trip inside your head, spend a day there... to hear the things you havent said...
...and see what you might see. I wanna hear you when you call, do you feel anything at all? I wanna see your thoughts take shape and walk right out."
So I have not fallen off the face of the earth... I have just been really busy. Tried to catch up on commenting and what not just now. I will do more a bit later on today.
Last weekend I ended up going home again when I was not supposed to. Oops. But I had a really good time and it made me feel amazing as always. Saturday was sweetest day... so I went over to my best friend Kathy's house and she made me steak for dinner! How awesome is that? Then we made Halloween sugar cookies and watched Bee Movie. Sunday we ended up going to Navy Pier for a boat ride and since Alex was bartending on Scott's boat we brought them both cookies and I colored the bags like a three year old. I drew a tombstone on Scott's and a pumpkin on Alex's. We created "naked people" cookies for Scott because Kathy and I are immature and have to create at least two naked people sugar cookies when we make them. It was pretty funny because the boobs fell off the woman so we had to ice them back on but when we brought the cookies to Scott her arm fell off too so he made jokes about her being a one armed prostitute... then went on to eat her leg... and said that she was right sided... then went on to eat her left boob and said she was completely right sided... then continued to eat her piece by piece. It was morbid but really hilarious. He was in his captain sweater because it was pretty cold and looked very spiffy and professional :-) I got a very big hug as well for the cookies and because I brought him left over Chinese food. He did not go out with us afterwards but it was a Sunday and he had diving the next day. Still nice to see him. We went on his sunset tour and I took a pretty sweet picture, it was really beautiful that night.
Chicago is so beautiful :-) There were people from Utah that were saying how it was weird how pretty it was because they have beautiful mountains but we just have buildings. I made a smart remark about how we have mountains too. Beautiful mountains... architectural mountains. Which is a weird way... is true. The skyline is gorgeous.
I came home then on Monday and immediately felt a feeling of dread and unhappiness. Milwaukee is taking me by hold and consuming me like a black cloud these days. Its just making me unhappy. Probably explains why I go home so often this year. Its just not right for me... and I feel like I am not learning anything at school which makes me feel like being here is pointless. I have had many moments of not even wanting to get out of bed this week... or moments at night where I just want to get away so I walk with my headphones on and sit by the lake for an hour and think. The lake here is what calms me. I think it reminds me of home. Same lake... just 90 minutes north. With all of this in mind I think I am going to transfer to Columbia College in Chicago for my last year next year. I told my mother and she thought it was a good idea. Not just because I am home sick though.. but because I feel it will be better for my major. Here we only take 2 advertising related classes and can graduate as an Advertising major. At Columbia... you take 10 classes. A years worth. More portfolio building, more preparation. I think its a better choice. My sister found out and sent me this in an email:
"How are your classes going? I hear that you might be going to Columbia next year which would be very cool since you would be closer. :-) And then we could go to a bar together because you'll be 21!!!
At the end of the day, you need to do whatever you have to in order to be happy, and I promote that very much."
It made me feel better about my decision. I mean... this will make me happier. I have a strong feeling about that. I discussed this in length with Kathy as well and a few people from work. Scott sat down with me while he was driving and let me talk to him alone in the pilot house. He told me that I need to do what is best for me and if that means moving that's what I need to do. He went into some of his past life experience and how he moved away and actually ended up back in Chicago as well. He said this city draws you in... and you can never shake it. Once it is home, there is no turning back.
Advertising is insane.. and we are so far behind but hopefully catching up. We met with our ad agency yesterday and got a lot of tips but now we have tons to do even more to do. Hopefully we will get a good hold on everything. It is just kicking my ass right now. We stayed up til 2 am working on the project last night.. and still are not even close to being close to done.
Im getting sick I think too... and on top of it over slept for class this morning. Which I am oddly okay with at the moment. Probably because I have had a stressful week and need the rest.
Crap went down with Ryan the other day ... that I really don't feel like going into right now but at 2 am he pissed me off to the point where I pushed him and walked out of him house and walked to the lake in the freezing cold to sit on a bench for an hour before I headed home. It was not pleasant.
Anyways..I should get back to my work. Hope everyone is doing well.
So I have not fallen off the face of the earth... I have just been really busy. Tried to catch up on commenting and what not just now. I will do more a bit later on today.
Last weekend I ended up going home again when I was not supposed to. Oops. But I had a really good time and it made me feel amazing as always. Saturday was sweetest day... so I went over to my best friend Kathy's house and she made me steak for dinner! How awesome is that? Then we made Halloween sugar cookies and watched Bee Movie. Sunday we ended up going to Navy Pier for a boat ride and since Alex was bartending on Scott's boat we brought them both cookies and I colored the bags like a three year old. I drew a tombstone on Scott's and a pumpkin on Alex's. We created "naked people" cookies for Scott because Kathy and I are immature and have to create at least two naked people sugar cookies when we make them. It was pretty funny because the boobs fell off the woman so we had to ice them back on but when we brought the cookies to Scott her arm fell off too so he made jokes about her being a one armed prostitute... then went on to eat her leg... and said that she was right sided... then went on to eat her left boob and said she was completely right sided... then continued to eat her piece by piece. It was morbid but really hilarious. He was in his captain sweater because it was pretty cold and looked very spiffy and professional :-) I got a very big hug as well for the cookies and because I brought him left over Chinese food. He did not go out with us afterwards but it was a Sunday and he had diving the next day. Still nice to see him. We went on his sunset tour and I took a pretty sweet picture, it was really beautiful that night.
Chicago is so beautiful :-) There were people from Utah that were saying how it was weird how pretty it was because they have beautiful mountains but we just have buildings. I made a smart remark about how we have mountains too. Beautiful mountains... architectural mountains. Which is a weird way... is true. The skyline is gorgeous.
I came home then on Monday and immediately felt a feeling of dread and unhappiness. Milwaukee is taking me by hold and consuming me like a black cloud these days. Its just making me unhappy. Probably explains why I go home so often this year. Its just not right for me... and I feel like I am not learning anything at school which makes me feel like being here is pointless. I have had many moments of not even wanting to get out of bed this week... or moments at night where I just want to get away so I walk with my headphones on and sit by the lake for an hour and think. The lake here is what calms me. I think it reminds me of home. Same lake... just 90 minutes north. With all of this in mind I think I am going to transfer to Columbia College in Chicago for my last year next year. I told my mother and she thought it was a good idea. Not just because I am home sick though.. but because I feel it will be better for my major. Here we only take 2 advertising related classes and can graduate as an Advertising major. At Columbia... you take 10 classes. A years worth. More portfolio building, more preparation. I think its a better choice. My sister found out and sent me this in an email:
"How are your classes going? I hear that you might be going to Columbia next year which would be very cool since you would be closer. :-) And then we could go to a bar together because you'll be 21!!!
At the end of the day, you need to do whatever you have to in order to be happy, and I promote that very much."
It made me feel better about my decision. I mean... this will make me happier. I have a strong feeling about that. I discussed this in length with Kathy as well and a few people from work. Scott sat down with me while he was driving and let me talk to him alone in the pilot house. He told me that I need to do what is best for me and if that means moving that's what I need to do. He went into some of his past life experience and how he moved away and actually ended up back in Chicago as well. He said this city draws you in... and you can never shake it. Once it is home, there is no turning back.
Advertising is insane.. and we are so far behind but hopefully catching up. We met with our ad agency yesterday and got a lot of tips but now we have tons to do even more to do. Hopefully we will get a good hold on everything. It is just kicking my ass right now. We stayed up til 2 am working on the project last night.. and still are not even close to being close to done.
Im getting sick I think too... and on top of it over slept for class this morning. Which I am oddly okay with at the moment. Probably because I have had a stressful week and need the rest.
Crap went down with Ryan the other day ... that I really don't feel like going into right now but at 2 am he pissed me off to the point where I pushed him and walked out of him house and walked to the lake in the freezing cold to sit on a bench for an hour before I headed home. It was not pleasant.
Anyways..I should get back to my work. Hope everyone is doing well.