I don't love you like I loved you yesterday (chapter 4 pt 2)
Title: I don't love you like I loved you yesterday
Summary: Jack has everything he could ever want except Alex. Alex has everything he could ever want except Jack.
Pairing: Jalex
POV: 1st switches between jack and alex
Rating: M-ish but it's pretty tame at the moment
Warning: Language, it's slash so yeah..
Disclaimer: It's all lies, so don't sue
Credit: Title to My Chemical Romance, cut to my chem as well
Dedications: to my dear Vee
A/N: so yeah, this part 2 bit was a little too long for my liking so i kind of cut if off at the end. Vee is going to kill me for making her wait till monday for chapter 5. But I basically have the next 3 chapters mapped out so she can't hate me too much.
Constructive criticism is appreciated :]
masterpost
“Hello Lisa”
“Hey Jacko, Why didn’t meh Lexxy answer” , She’s sounds so fucking peppy I could slit her throat, if only she fucking knew what he knew.
“ Ummm, Lex is sleeping”
“yeah but where?”
“Oh, well where are you Lisa?”
“I just got home and neither him nor Maddy is at home, it’s just weird I kind of expected them here that’s all”
“Oh back from your book tour then right?” It takes all I have inside to keep a level voice.
“Yeah and I miss them, where’s my baby”
“Maddy went into Baltimore with Sandra and Delilah for like a weekend getaway thing, and Alex and I drove up to New York”
“Oh” is all she says, it’s a nervous ‘oh’, it’s a oh fucking hell they know ‘oh’
“Yeah, for the opening of Angels and Kings. Pete opened one here”
“And so you guys are still there?”
“yeah, ummmm Lisa. I have to go, Alex just woke up and is puking again. You know he gets after a night with his Jager”
“Sure thing, tell him I love him”
“ yeah and one more thing hon”
“yeah Jack”
“Did you know Macy’s has a fur vault?”
“y-y-y-y-y-yeah I knew that why?”
“just common knowledge ya know”
“bye jack, I’ll see you guys soon right?”
“mhmmm, buh bye lis”
I touched the end buttoned and locked his phone
He was in the panic attack fetal position
Arms clutching a pillow
Legs curled up to his chest
Attempting to take deep breaths..
Tears streaming down his face.
I know why he’s crying, why he’s flipping out
Fuck, I’m flipping out too but I can’t let him see that anxiety
It’ll only worry him further
“Lex?”
He mumbles a response
I lie down in front of him so I’m facing him.
“Lex listen to me, It will be okay”, I try to calm him down
I pry his fingers off of his pillow and take them in mine
“Jack you don’t fu-fu-fucking know that” he’s starts shaking
“Alex listen to me goddamn it”
He sits up to face me
God he’s so beautiful
I feel the words forming in my throat
I feel the fake emotion gathering to back them up
I feel like shit
I am a traitor
“Lex. Lisa cheated on you and now you can do one of two things. One, forgive her because you’d be a hypocrite. I mean what do you call last night and when we were driving up and that time in Ocean City and our entire Junior and Senior years’. Two, confront her about it and then tell her about us. Your choice.”
I can see the logic return.
I can see the realization of my words on his face
I see the emotional rift grow between us again
“You’re right Jack. You’re so fucking right, I hate this. I hate what my life has become.”
“I know you do Lex, but you do have Maddy and you know she thinks the sun shines out of your ass”
“Jack, we’re going to have to pretend none of this ever happened….again”
“I know Lex. After the last time, I almost forgot everything that ever happened”
“I don’t want to forget”
“we have to, though. I thought I was okay fucking up my life and yours but I’m not. I really do love my wife”
“I know you do and I really do love Lisa. I guess I just caught up in everything.”
And then my phone rang, it was a William Beckett
“heya Blivy”
“jack, you sound happy today”
“shut the fuck up man”
“so you’re gonna play that game then?”
“yeah pretty much. So what’s up?”
“we are in a starbucks on 5th avenue closest to Tiffany’s, you and Alex really need to be here so get your asses here”
“we as in who?”
“PetePatrickTomMarkGabeTravieMeTravis and for some odd reason Caleb”
“Caleb Turman?”
“yeah weird right”
“I thought he went into like the peace corps or some shit”
“He’s back, tan, and has crazy ass hair that’s like to the middle of his back”
“We’ll be there in about 10 minutes”
“bye”
Alex
Jack’s getting dressed
I’m already dressed
I’m not really in the mood to do anything
I don’t want to get coffee with the guys
I want to lay in bed
I want to forget all this bullshit
I want to wake up and realize the last 13 years was all a dream
And I saw what my life could become and
Then I would stay with Jack
Dump Lisa
But
Everything Jack said rings true
I love Maddy and I wouldn’t trade her for anything in the entire fucking universe
Even if that means I can’t love Jack the way I want to
He’s ready to go
We turn in our keys and head to Starbucks
a/n- Vee don't kill me, remember I love you
Summary: Jack has everything he could ever want except Alex. Alex has everything he could ever want except Jack.
Pairing: Jalex
POV: 1st switches between jack and alex
Rating: M-ish but it's pretty tame at the moment
Warning: Language, it's slash so yeah..
Disclaimer: It's all lies, so don't sue
Credit: Title to My Chemical Romance, cut to my chem as well
Dedications: to my dear Vee
A/N: so yeah, this part 2 bit was a little too long for my liking so i kind of cut if off at the end. Vee is going to kill me for making her wait till monday for chapter 5. But I basically have the next 3 chapters mapped out so she can't hate me too much.
Constructive criticism is appreciated :]
masterpost
“Hello Lisa”
“Hey Jacko, Why didn’t meh Lexxy answer” , She’s sounds so fucking peppy I could slit her throat, if only she fucking knew what he knew.
“ Ummm, Lex is sleeping”
“yeah but where?”
“Oh, well where are you Lisa?”
“I just got home and neither him nor Maddy is at home, it’s just weird I kind of expected them here that’s all”
“Oh back from your book tour then right?” It takes all I have inside to keep a level voice.
“Yeah and I miss them, where’s my baby”
“Maddy went into Baltimore with Sandra and Delilah for like a weekend getaway thing, and Alex and I drove up to New York”
“Oh” is all she says, it’s a nervous ‘oh’, it’s a oh fucking hell they know ‘oh’
“Yeah, for the opening of Angels and Kings. Pete opened one here”
“And so you guys are still there?”
“yeah, ummmm Lisa. I have to go, Alex just woke up and is puking again. You know he gets after a night with his Jager”
“Sure thing, tell him I love him”
“ yeah and one more thing hon”
“yeah Jack”
“Did you know Macy’s has a fur vault?”
“y-y-y-y-y-yeah I knew that why?”
“just common knowledge ya know”
“bye jack, I’ll see you guys soon right?”
“mhmmm, buh bye lis”
I touched the end buttoned and locked his phone
He was in the panic attack fetal position
Arms clutching a pillow
Legs curled up to his chest
Attempting to take deep breaths..
Tears streaming down his face.
I know why he’s crying, why he’s flipping out
Fuck, I’m flipping out too but I can’t let him see that anxiety
It’ll only worry him further
“Lex?”
He mumbles a response
I lie down in front of him so I’m facing him.
“Lex listen to me, It will be okay”, I try to calm him down
I pry his fingers off of his pillow and take them in mine
“Jack you don’t fu-fu-fucking know that” he’s starts shaking
“Alex listen to me goddamn it”
He sits up to face me
God he’s so beautiful
I feel the words forming in my throat
I feel the fake emotion gathering to back them up
I feel like shit
I am a traitor
“Lex. Lisa cheated on you and now you can do one of two things. One, forgive her because you’d be a hypocrite. I mean what do you call last night and when we were driving up and that time in Ocean City and our entire Junior and Senior years’. Two, confront her about it and then tell her about us. Your choice.”
I can see the logic return.
I can see the realization of my words on his face
I see the emotional rift grow between us again
“You’re right Jack. You’re so fucking right, I hate this. I hate what my life has become.”
“I know you do Lex, but you do have Maddy and you know she thinks the sun shines out of your ass”
“Jack, we’re going to have to pretend none of this ever happened….again”
“I know Lex. After the last time, I almost forgot everything that ever happened”
“I don’t want to forget”
“we have to, though. I thought I was okay fucking up my life and yours but I’m not. I really do love my wife”
“I know you do and I really do love Lisa. I guess I just caught up in everything.”
And then my phone rang, it was a William Beckett
“heya Blivy”
“jack, you sound happy today”
“shut the fuck up man”
“so you’re gonna play that game then?”
“yeah pretty much. So what’s up?”
“we are in a starbucks on 5th avenue closest to Tiffany’s, you and Alex really need to be here so get your asses here”
“we as in who?”
“PetePatrickTomMarkGabeTravieMeTravis and for some odd reason Caleb”
“Caleb Turman?”
“yeah weird right”
“I thought he went into like the peace corps or some shit”
“He’s back, tan, and has crazy ass hair that’s like to the middle of his back”
“We’ll be there in about 10 minutes”
“bye”
Alex
Jack’s getting dressed
I’m already dressed
I’m not really in the mood to do anything
I don’t want to get coffee with the guys
I want to lay in bed
I want to forget all this bullshit
I want to wake up and realize the last 13 years was all a dream
And I saw what my life could become and
Then I would stay with Jack
Dump Lisa
But
Everything Jack said rings true
I love Maddy and I wouldn’t trade her for anything in the entire fucking universe
Even if that means I can’t love Jack the way I want to
He’s ready to go
We turn in our keys and head to Starbucks
a/n- Vee don't kill me, remember I love you