Head On Collsion (10/13)
Title: Head On Collision
Author: scenery_poetry
Pair: Jack Barakat/Alex Gaskarth
Rating: NC-17
POV: Jack Barakat
Summary: Jack Barakat has a haunting secret. He lives with his mother, who mentally living in the past. When a childhood friends move back into town, everything slowly gets an revealed. Jack has some tough decisions ahead of him when his mother ends up expecting.
Disclaimer: I do not own these smexy boys. The title belongs to New Found Glory
Warnings: Rape of a minor, incest, and boysex.
Author's Note:This is beta'd by the wonderful can_i_weep. The plot moves along quiet nicely in this one so it is a must read.
Previous Chapters:
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
The months that follow are a tough time. By the time March comes around, everything has officially changed. Mom was showing, and we found out it's going to be a girl. It's making this all too real for me now. I'm not sure what to think anymore.
So, I stay with Alex as much as I can now. His family doesn't seem to mind one bit whenever I am over there. I also enjoy leisure time being with Alex. We mostly cuddle on the couch watching TV.
I hear my phone ring next to me. And just by the ringtone, I know it's my mom. I answer after pulling away slightly from Alex.
"Hello," I say.
"When are you coming home?" she asks.
"Since it's a Saturday night, I'm not. You said it was alright for me to be out."
"We need to be planning on what the nursery is going to look like. And our baby needs a name."
"You can do that."
I hang up my phone. I want to scream out loud out of pure frustration and anger. I settle with slouching back down, but I am nowhere near being as relaxed as I was.
"What was that about?" Alex asks.
"It was nothing."
"Really? Because it doesn't look like nothing."
"It was," I say. "It was nothing that isn't normal for me."
"Okay, if you say so," Alex says unconvinced.
I cuddle back into Alex. He slips an arm around me and squeezes me. I rest my head on his shoulder. We continue to watch whatever program is on.
The doorbell rings, making me jump. Neither of us move to go answer it, so Mrs. Gaskarth does. I wish to ignore it all, but I get this feeling in my stomach that is not letting me. It's confirmed when Mrs. Gaskarth comes into the room.
"Jack, you're mom is here," she says.
I nod and get up. I ignore it this time. I just hope the woman doesn't cause a scene.
"I knew I would find you here. You have some nerve going out when I need you at home. It's not good for our baby when I get stressed."
Everything around me gets silent. I slump a bit and brace myself for what is about to happen. Alex rushes beside me.
"What do you mean by 'our' baby?" Alex asks her.
"You mean he hasn't told you?" my mom says with a grin. "The newest addition to the Barakat family is ours."
Alex looks at me. "Is that true? Jack?"
I nod softly and look off to the side. With that, Alex's eyes widen. He gently pushes me off to the side.
"You are fucking sick!" Alex yells at my mom. "You are never coming near Jack again. He is your son."
"You have no right-" she tries to interrupt, but Mrs. Gaskarth steps in.
Fuck! His parents heard it as well. I forgot that they are standing there with their own shocked and disgusted looks. It's hard to tell what exactly they are disgusted by.
"You need to leave before more charges get pressed against you. If you don't leave I will be calling the police to escort you off this property."
The door gets shut and locked quickly. I feel all three pairs of eyes looking at me. I can't look at them right now. I can't take their scrutiny. There's no telling me what they think of me now. I'm scared that Alex and his parents are going to hate me now. I've kept this hidden for so long. I was hoping that it would never come out. I feel a pair of arms pull me into a hug. I look and see Alex.
"Is that what you've been keeping from me?" he asks in a gentle tone.
I nod. "Do you hate me?"
Alex shakes his head. "No! I could never hate you. I love you so much, Jack. This isn't your fault. You are not the one who is in the wrong. You know that, right?"
I shrug. I can't honestly say that I do fully believe his words, but I do know I'm not the larger party to blame. "I don't know. I could have done something."
"Jack..." Alex grabs my hand and leads me over to the couch. I sit down while he crouches down in front of me. He doesn't let go of my hand and stares straight into my eyes. "I love you. I know you know that. So I need you to believe me when I tell you that this is not your fault. You are the victim."
My resolve breaks, and I become a sobbing mess. I try my hardest to not cry in front of the only person that truly means anything to me, but I fail. Alex sits down next to me and pulls me close. He just holds me as I cry.
I have never been more grateful towards him than I am now. I am happy that he doesn't reject me. I feel as though a huge weight has been lifted off of me now that one of my biggest concerns was proven false.
Alex's mom comes into the room after a while. She sits down on the other side of me.
"Jack, we need to discuss what you are going to do. You are more than welcome here with us. We already think of you as a surrogate son. But are you going to press charges against your mother?"
"Can I?" I ask.
"You have every right to do so. It's your choice. We can't make you do anything you don't want to."
"What about the- the kid?" I ask stubling over what I should call the spawn my mom is carring.
"Since she is considered to be an unfit mother, most likely the DFACs will handle that matter. You could take care of it. If you wanted to that is."
I shake my head. "I can't. I'm too young. Plus, it shouldn't have been conceived."
"Jack, I know this is hard for you. None of us can imagine what you must be going through, but can you really hate a child for something it has no control over?"
I know she is only trying to make me think over every option I have, but there's no way i can take care of this child. It will only be a constant reminder of what my own mother did to me. It's best if I give it away.
I shake my head again. "I can't. I'm sorry."
She sighs. "Okay. You should probably rest for the night before you decide what to do tomorrow. I will promise you a safe place here."
"Thank you," I say.
I am more than grateful to let this subject be dropped for now. I want to push it away and not think of it, like I have been
She walks out of the room. Alex lets me cling to him. I still have to convince myself that he isn't going to hate me or leave me before all of this is over. I'm scared to make the wrong decisions right now.
"I'll be here for you no matter what you decide," Alex says as if he can read my mind. "I promise to never leave you. This is no one's choice but yours, but I will be here for you ever step of the way."
"I need help," I say. "I don't know what to do."
"You have time to decide. Take as long as you need."
"Thank you."
Alex gives me a small kiss, which in turn makes me feel almost reassured about him. Alex still loves me. I think as long as he is by my side, I'll be fine.