Keeping This Up Could Be Dangerous (Thirty)
Title: Keeping This Up Could Be Dangerous
Author: Amber
Pairing: Jalex
Rating: NC-17
P.O.V.: Jack
Summary: Best friends Alex Gaskarth and Jack Barakat tell each other everything. At least, Alex thought they told each other everything. Jack has a secret, well three actually; 1. Jack is gay. 2. He is in love with his best friend. 3. He cuts.
Disclaimer: I don't own Jack, Alex, or anyone in the lovely band and crew that make up All Time Low. They all own each other. Amen.
turnthepageover.livejournal.com/15881.html - Masterpost. I fail at links. So that's the best I can do.
As soon as the guys left the van again Alex's lips were instantly attached to mine. He straddled my waist and wrapped his arms around my neck. This is unreal, so unreal. Alex was finally mine. My boyfriend; but he wasn't just mine. He was still hers, too, but she wasn't here. The pessimistic side of me kept telling me that he would go back to Megan when tour was over, but I pushed that part aside. I wrapped my arms around Alex and pulled him closer to me. He was mine.
It was hard not to get all hot and bothered with him on top of me. It was hard especially knowing that he wanted to be with me as much as I wanted to be with him. It didn't help that I was already turned on from the dreams I had of him. Alex pulled away from me and laid his head on my shoulder.
"I really love being with you," he said, lightly kissing my neck.
"Me too," I said, leaning my own head on top of his.
"You're all hard, baby," he giggled.
"I know," I whined. Alex laughed and slid his hand down my chest and into my pants.
"Matt will murder us," I said, leaning my head back against the seat.
"I don't care," Alex giggled, before sliding down and kneeling in the small space in front of the back seat of the van. "He doesn't need to know."
I looked at him confused; how could Matt not notice? Alex smirked up at me before pulling a blanket over his body, covering him and my lap completely.I felt his hands on my hips, and him messing with the waistband of my boxers. They slid down, exposing me to Alex.
I didn't know what he was going to do. His wanting to be with me was still pretty new, and it was hard for me to wrap my head around. Alex started lightly biting on my hips, and running his hand up and down my thigh. My eyes widened when he grabbed onto my dick and started to lick it. It felt so good, and so unreal.
I wasn't used to this at all. The pleasure in gaining the one thing I've wanted since I was 15. Alex swirled his tongue around my dick, causing me to moan. I closed my eyes with my head still back on the seat, letting Alex expertly continue pleasuring me. Then the vfan door slid open.
"Hey Jack, Alex I have...what are you doing?" Matt asked, looking into the van.
"Nothing," I moaned.
"Where is Alex?"
"I don't...Oh Fuck!...I don't know!"
"Why do you have a blanket on you?" he asked, "Ew really?! I thought I told you guys no sex on the van!"
"Not...technically sex," I groaned.
"Yes it is, you assholes! You better fucking stop right now!"
"Can't," I said, my eyes rolling back in pleasure.
"I'm going to kill you both! I have something important for you and the guys! Something important to the band, and you need to stop sucking on him, Alex, and get your asses out here."
I couldn't reply. I couldn't form words, I was a mess in Alex's...erm mouth. I couldn't contain my moans anymore, and realeased in Alex's mouth.
"It's cool," Alex said from under the blanket, before pushing it off of him. "He's done."
"Gross," Matt said, looking away, "Jack cover up, and Alex wipe your mouth."
---
Alex and I walked off the bus, only to be greeted by a disgusted looking Matt, a smirking Rian, and a smiling Zack. There were some other people there that I didn't know, and at the moment I really didn't care. I grabbed Alex's hand and went to face Matt.
"You broke the rules," Rian teased.
"There was only one rule! You broke it within like ten minutes of it being set down!" Matt yelled.
"I've never liked the rules," I said, smirking.
"That's true, Jack doesn't follow rules very well," Alex added.
"Neither do you!" Zack laughed.
"Screw you all! I follow every rule! In my own way," Alex said.
"Yeah, whatever," Matt sighed.
"Matt, you aren't my mom, I don't listen to rules given by you," I said.
"Do you want me to make you call your mom and tell her again?!" he yelled, and I shut up and looked down.
"That was cruel, bro," I said before dropping Alex's hand and walking off. Alex and Matt yelling after me.
---
I was sitting behind the venue, with the hood on my hoodie up. I know I was being sensitive, but I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be the only one if they were in my situation. I didn't expect to be alive right now. I never expected that my life would be turning out the way that it was right now. I was on the road, touring with The Academy Is... and my best friends. Alex was mine, for now, which in itself was unbelievable. And I was alive, after trying to kill myself. I was alive, and my mom was disappointed in me. Alex was disappointed in me Matt, Rian, Zack, my brother and sister, all disappointed. So what was I doing here? How were good things happening to me, when I know everyone is actually upset with me, but afraid to tell me? Afraid of what I'll do. It blows my mind.
"There you are," Rian's voice rang out. I looked up at him as he walked over and sat next to me. "You know, Matt does feel bad. As soon as you left he started cussing himself out and saying how stupid he was."
"That's nice."
"What's wrong, Jack?"
"Nothing, I just can't understand life right now."
"Understandable, after what you, and well all of us, went through these past few days."
"So what did Matt want anyway?" I asked, trying to change the subject.
"He found us a crew so we can stop using The Academy Is's. Apparently they are some of his old friends and some other people. I was only half listening."
"If I was there, I would have zoned out, and needed you guys to tell me their names later."
"Probably," Rian laughed.
"Not my fault, I get bored easy," I said.
"Trust me, I think we have all noticed that."
"So anyway, did you all start looking for me or something?"
"Yeah, after Matt introduced us to the crew. Your boyfriend looked upset as soon as you left. I don't think he was paying to much attention to what Matt was saying."
"It's weird to call him that," I admitted.
"I bet," Rian chuckled.
"So who headed up this 'search-for-Jack' party?"
"Matt did actually. "
"Surprising."
"He is just worried about you, Jack. We are all worried about you. We never knew you were so upset."
"Alex found out, during the tour."
"Found out what?"
"That I had been cutting," I said, biting my tongue as soon as the words left my mouth. Rian sighed, and cussed under his breath.
"Where at?"
"Here," I said, running my hand over my leg were the scars were covered by my pants.
"Damn," Rian sighed.
"Yeah. I think things are turning around," I admitted, "I mean, now you guys all know my secrets. I'm happier than I've been in years, and now I have more chances to get laid."
"I don't want to know what you and Alex do when you are alone. As long as it's not where I sleep, or eat, I don't give a fuck what you do."
"Aww, your approval means so much to me!" I said, jokingly throwing myself on Rian, causing us to both fall over.
"This is the Jack I miss. The crazy obnoxious one. Please tell me he is back, and staying back."
"Hell yes, baby. Jack is back!" I laughed, kissing Rian's cheek, before getting off of him and running off to find my boyfriend.
Author: Amber
Pairing: Jalex
Rating: NC-17
P.O.V.: Jack
Summary: Best friends Alex Gaskarth and Jack Barakat tell each other everything. At least, Alex thought they told each other everything. Jack has a secret, well three actually; 1. Jack is gay. 2. He is in love with his best friend. 3. He cuts.
Disclaimer: I don't own Jack, Alex, or anyone in the lovely band and crew that make up All Time Low. They all own each other. Amen.
turnthepageover.livejournal.com/15881.html - Masterpost. I fail at links. So that's the best I can do.
As soon as the guys left the van again Alex's lips were instantly attached to mine. He straddled my waist and wrapped his arms around my neck. This is unreal, so unreal. Alex was finally mine. My boyfriend; but he wasn't just mine. He was still hers, too, but she wasn't here. The pessimistic side of me kept telling me that he would go back to Megan when tour was over, but I pushed that part aside. I wrapped my arms around Alex and pulled him closer to me. He was mine.
It was hard not to get all hot and bothered with him on top of me. It was hard especially knowing that he wanted to be with me as much as I wanted to be with him. It didn't help that I was already turned on from the dreams I had of him. Alex pulled away from me and laid his head on my shoulder.
"I really love being with you," he said, lightly kissing my neck.
"Me too," I said, leaning my own head on top of his.
"You're all hard, baby," he giggled.
"I know," I whined. Alex laughed and slid his hand down my chest and into my pants.
"Matt will murder us," I said, leaning my head back against the seat.
"I don't care," Alex giggled, before sliding down and kneeling in the small space in front of the back seat of the van. "He doesn't need to know."
I looked at him confused; how could Matt not notice? Alex smirked up at me before pulling a blanket over his body, covering him and my lap completely.I felt his hands on my hips, and him messing with the waistband of my boxers. They slid down, exposing me to Alex.
I didn't know what he was going to do. His wanting to be with me was still pretty new, and it was hard for me to wrap my head around. Alex started lightly biting on my hips, and running his hand up and down my thigh. My eyes widened when he grabbed onto my dick and started to lick it. It felt so good, and so unreal.
I wasn't used to this at all. The pleasure in gaining the one thing I've wanted since I was 15. Alex swirled his tongue around my dick, causing me to moan. I closed my eyes with my head still back on the seat, letting Alex expertly continue pleasuring me. Then the vfan door slid open.
"Hey Jack, Alex I have...what are you doing?" Matt asked, looking into the van.
"Nothing," I moaned.
"Where is Alex?"
"I don't...Oh Fuck!...I don't know!"
"Why do you have a blanket on you?" he asked, "Ew really?! I thought I told you guys no sex on the van!"
"Not...technically sex," I groaned.
"Yes it is, you assholes! You better fucking stop right now!"
"Can't," I said, my eyes rolling back in pleasure.
"I'm going to kill you both! I have something important for you and the guys! Something important to the band, and you need to stop sucking on him, Alex, and get your asses out here."
I couldn't reply. I couldn't form words, I was a mess in Alex's...erm mouth. I couldn't contain my moans anymore, and realeased in Alex's mouth.
"It's cool," Alex said from under the blanket, before pushing it off of him. "He's done."
"Gross," Matt said, looking away, "Jack cover up, and Alex wipe your mouth."
---
Alex and I walked off the bus, only to be greeted by a disgusted looking Matt, a smirking Rian, and a smiling Zack. There were some other people there that I didn't know, and at the moment I really didn't care. I grabbed Alex's hand and went to face Matt.
"You broke the rules," Rian teased.
"There was only one rule! You broke it within like ten minutes of it being set down!" Matt yelled.
"I've never liked the rules," I said, smirking.
"That's true, Jack doesn't follow rules very well," Alex added.
"Neither do you!" Zack laughed.
"Screw you all! I follow every rule! In my own way," Alex said.
"Yeah, whatever," Matt sighed.
"Matt, you aren't my mom, I don't listen to rules given by you," I said.
"Do you want me to make you call your mom and tell her again?!" he yelled, and I shut up and looked down.
"That was cruel, bro," I said before dropping Alex's hand and walking off. Alex and Matt yelling after me.
---
I was sitting behind the venue, with the hood on my hoodie up. I know I was being sensitive, but I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be the only one if they were in my situation. I didn't expect to be alive right now. I never expected that my life would be turning out the way that it was right now. I was on the road, touring with The Academy Is... and my best friends. Alex was mine, for now, which in itself was unbelievable. And I was alive, after trying to kill myself. I was alive, and my mom was disappointed in me. Alex was disappointed in me Matt, Rian, Zack, my brother and sister, all disappointed. So what was I doing here? How were good things happening to me, when I know everyone is actually upset with me, but afraid to tell me? Afraid of what I'll do. It blows my mind.
"There you are," Rian's voice rang out. I looked up at him as he walked over and sat next to me. "You know, Matt does feel bad. As soon as you left he started cussing himself out and saying how stupid he was."
"That's nice."
"What's wrong, Jack?"
"Nothing, I just can't understand life right now."
"Understandable, after what you, and well all of us, went through these past few days."
"So what did Matt want anyway?" I asked, trying to change the subject.
"He found us a crew so we can stop using The Academy Is's. Apparently they are some of his old friends and some other people. I was only half listening."
"If I was there, I would have zoned out, and needed you guys to tell me their names later."
"Probably," Rian laughed.
"Not my fault, I get bored easy," I said.
"Trust me, I think we have all noticed that."
"So anyway, did you all start looking for me or something?"
"Yeah, after Matt introduced us to the crew. Your boyfriend looked upset as soon as you left. I don't think he was paying to much attention to what Matt was saying."
"It's weird to call him that," I admitted.
"I bet," Rian chuckled.
"So who headed up this 'search-for-Jack' party?"
"Matt did actually. "
"Surprising."
"He is just worried about you, Jack. We are all worried about you. We never knew you were so upset."
"Alex found out, during the tour."
"Found out what?"
"That I had been cutting," I said, biting my tongue as soon as the words left my mouth. Rian sighed, and cussed under his breath.
"Where at?"
"Here," I said, running my hand over my leg were the scars were covered by my pants.
"Damn," Rian sighed.
"Yeah. I think things are turning around," I admitted, "I mean, now you guys all know my secrets. I'm happier than I've been in years, and now I have more chances to get laid."
"I don't want to know what you and Alex do when you are alone. As long as it's not where I sleep, or eat, I don't give a fuck what you do."
"Aww, your approval means so much to me!" I said, jokingly throwing myself on Rian, causing us to both fall over.
"This is the Jack I miss. The crazy obnoxious one. Please tell me he is back, and staying back."
"Hell yes, baby. Jack is back!" I laughed, kissing Rian's cheek, before getting off of him and running off to find my boyfriend.