[public as the rest of 'em! ;)]
Death is my purpose. Death I understand intimately. People? Not so much. Forming connections with them even less. I know how to be an angel of death. It makes sense to me. I don't know how to be just Sarah. I don't know that I even know who she really is, or that anyone else ever will
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There are going to be people who care and who you connect with better maybe cause they don't really understand people either.
I kinda want to punch that Carter guy in the face.
Maybe we got along so well cause death is a big part of my life too or maybe it's just the you, the Sarah whoever she is that you'll find, and the me.
Not your angel of death and not all the death that I've experienced.
It's not sad by the way. You don't want to kiss anyone unless you're ready and unless it's right.
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I feel like I should. I should understand better, but I don't, unless I'm at their side while they're dying. And that's more the Calling then me. I think.
He's kind of a jerk, this jock that goes to Looney, but his dad was friends with my dad, and I was kind of put on the spot. Kicking him felt good. Mini-golf equipment: unexpectedly useful weaponry substitutes.
Maybe that's it. I don't know if it's the death thing or not, or if it's just the Sarah and Jeremy, or just the fact you slammed down two of the most unbearable girls in school.
I mean, that gave you all the cool points.
It's not? People usually think it's lame. I just think there's this moment, where you know you want to kiss someone, and there's nothing that's going to keep you from it. If it's not there, then I don't want it.
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Maybe we can form a club. There has to be more of us out there that just Don't Get It.
He is but no, he is the last person you'd ever want to get into a fight with, especially if you're going to go to school here. His family's one of the richest in town and some of them toe the 'angel supremacy' and 'anti-wanderers' line ( ... )
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I would be up for a club. That would mean t-shirts and regular meetings, right? The Don't Get it Club. Very cool.
That's not really ever stopped me before. I used to get in fights with the mayor's son where I'm from. I'll try to avoid him, but I'm not always good at remaining in control.
[And there is definite laughter at that. :x] Awesome. I just wish it was caught on camera so I could see it ( ... )
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We can co-preside.
I should be advocating impulse control, but I did just tell you about my most recent mini-golfing experience.
[IT WAS PRETTY AWESOME, ngl :D] I wish you had. too. You are officially the only person to believe it.
You're forgetting homecoming, Jeremy. That makes or breaks you for life. [She is clearly not being serious ;x] Some of the girls are already planning out their dresses for prom. It's ridiculous.
On second thought, you might get a big head about it. I'll monitor this reward system carefully.
I believe you. It's okay. You'd mentioned doing something that gave you a reputation but I hadn't wanted to pry. No one's perfect. And at least you can say you went for it instead of just letting moments pass you by.
Thank you. [it is a good thing this is over the journals since that makes her blush a little ;x] Sir, yes, sir.
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Yeah, me and impulse control don't get along that well. I'm getting better at it, but I have a feeling this guy would tick me off.
[IT SOUNDS LIKE IT. Sarah is awesome. :x Speaking of winning cool points.] I do believe it. Wish everyone else was smart enough to too but we already talked about how we don't get people.
Right. How could I forget about that? It's like I have no sense. [:x Neither is he.] Wow, that's a little-- That is way soon. There's a lot more to life than that.
Hey, there's no danger of that. You know as long as you give me my cool points. The monitoring is okay. Don't be stingy with them. ;)
Yeah, I would sell them too. That's kind of how I really started spending time with her in the first place. That's true. Still. It would have been nice for my first kiss to be something I could remember more and with someone who was really interested in me.
You're welcome. [baaaaaaaaaaaaaaw. :x :x] We should totally hang out some time before school starts ( ... )
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He probably would. I can't see you getting along at all. That's a good thing. He's arrogance wrapped up in polo vests. And actually takes Polo lessons.
[He is awesome too, so. ;x] I don't know if it's that they don't believe it or people just like having something to talk about. If you're tearing someone down people are too busy to notice your own warts.
I don't know! It's almost sacrilege. It's a good thing I'm here to give you some sense. [She knows ;x] Yeah, just a bit premature. I'll probably be ditching it altogether. Dances aren't really my thing.
Never say never. I will! I will. The level of stingy is yet to be seen. ;)
I'm glad you're not at that point anymore, even if I think I get it. It's not the same but after my third death I went and got really, really drunk. Thoughts and feelings kind of numbed down. It was what I wanted at the time. And hey, think back to the first time you ( ... )
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I hate him already for being a dick to you if I'm being honest. There's a lot of hatred for polo vests. Who wears vests and still thinks it makes them cool or whatever
[They are both awesome. ;;] It's probably the second one. Still I think the whole hitting someone with mini golf equipment is a lot more interesting to talk about. Yeah, I guess.
Yes, it's a very good thing. Hey, don't knock it until you try it. What was that you just told me about seizing the moment? Something like that. I don't know if I'd go either. It hasn't really been my scene in the past. [Except that one time with Bonnie.]I will never say never again. I'll have to monitor that I guess ( ... )
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[Aw, Jeremy. :x] It's not worth it, seriously. I hope you never meet him but if you do, you'll see what I mean.
[They are ;;] Probably. You're not the only one that thinks so, if it helps any.
There's seizing the moment and drinking the kool aide, as you just told me. I listen that way. I don't know. I might feel differently about it but that's still a far off thing. It's really cool you're going to Looney.
We both have our work cut out for us! :P
I don't know that I could put it into words if I tried. I also don't know what led you to getting into drugs, but sometimes you just want to forget. I'm not saying either thing was the right thing to do, but it's human. Not about to hold that against you.
I have good ideas from time to time.
I can come to the Tower. I'm supposed to check in on someone there as it is and I'll just stick around afterward. See you then. :)
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[WELL :x] Yeah, I know. It tends to not be worth it, but I kind of fail at the impulse control that we were talking about. I'm better, but no promises.
It does help.
Yeah, but is going to a dance drinking the kool aide? I don't know either, but yeah, it's a long way away and it doesn't have to be a big thing. I think it's pretty cool too. I didn't mind skipping high school, but I think I like going more than I thought I would.
Yeah, we do. :] We can handle it.
You probably couldn't. Some things can't be put to words. Some things are just for you to know. Thanks though. I appreciate you not holding it against me.
You do.
Alright. That sounds good. :) See you, Sarah. And hey, here's another silver lining from this forced journal entry.
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It's been part of why she's been going there every week, and why she was there when the meteor shower hit. She saw someone's death and has been keeping tabs on them, as inconspicuously as possible. It's not something she has to worry about yet. She doesn't think the angel of death thing comes as naturally to her as it seems to come to Elizabeth, but it's still her responsibility and one she takes seriously.
As seriously as one can take anything in life. She stayed up late painting the portrait she sent off to Elizabeth, so she slept through her alarm clock and had to shower and dress quickly. She put on the first thing she could reach for in her wardrobe, a pair of cut off shorts and an olive green shirt, and set out on her way.
She's waiting for Jeremy outside the Tower when she notices she didn't even tie the laces of her Converse sneakers. Whoops.
Sarah bends down to tie them up so she doesn't have an accident later. That would be bad.
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On top of all that, there are these secrets being exposed on the journals and he is only glad that none of his were spilled over on to an entry. It still sucks for everyone that he knows of who was forced to write something down. He did not realize Martha Jones could ever get that drunk, but everyone's human including Ms. Jones ( ... )
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Stepmother-from-hell is back from her Carribean cruise and that means a lot of her friends come over for tea and such. Her dad's always busy so it's not like he's home a lot unless it's a weekend. Spending time with said stepmother and bratty seven-year old stepsister is really not her idea of a fun time ( ... )
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It felt bad at the time, but the more she read of them, the more she realized hers was rather trivial in comparison. Some of them were really painfully and mortifyingly private. She doesn't have those kinds of secrets, and it's not so much because she's young, she just hasn't really... had a lot of experience with life in general.
One would think that would be impossible, living in Chicago, but she's still kind of new and has kept to herself a lot.
Her whole junior year was spent mostly in isolation, and it had a lot to do with being sixteen and finding her way, living life differently as an angel as opposed to just a human girl. Then it just stuck that way, until this year, kind of.
"Oh, it was a blast and a half. I think it's because I tend to think faster than my feet can actually move, and it's the sidewalk's way of saying, slow down." She smirks back at him before she falls into step beside him. She blinks up at him against the sun, thoughtfully ( ... )
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