[locked to Jeremy]
Is it true?
Did you get into a fight with Carter?
You haven't shown up for school and it's my turn to be really worried so if you could just let me know you're okay and
That would be good.
Did you get into a fight with Carter?
You haven't shown up for school and it's my turn to be really worried so if you could just let me know you're okay and
That would be good.
It'd be unrealistic to think things can go back to exactly what they were, and they shouldn't be.
Things happen, and they should change you.
Sarah tightens her own hold on him, her cheek resting against his shoulder. She smiles against it half-heartedly. "As long as that's clear," she says, and she'd say she isn't serious, only she kind of is. She isn't asking for any more promises. Promises can be broken, even when you don't want them to be, and he's only human. They're only human.
Sarah releases a breath she didn't know she'd been holding when he agrees, even if her stomach drops at the next time. She bites on the insides of her cheeks, wondering how she's even remaining in place but the smile doesn't fall, miraculously. She doesn't let it. "That's all I ask. I'll help you find another way," she says, even if she can't really add next time. She knows there will be.
Next time it hurts. Next time it happens.
There's always, always a next time and she hates it, and it's miserable, and why does anyone keep trying and trying and trying if they never get there?
"Yes, please. That's a very good idea. Here, I'll help you," she says, shifting so that she is beside him and he can lean on her a little. She carefully helps him back toward the bed so that he can rest in it. It's only after he's on his own side of the bed, comfortably resting there, that she gingerly lays across from it, a hand tucked against her cheek as she looks at him, at the rise and fall of his chest, just making sure one last time the worst didn't come to happen.
The bruising all over, the grief that one can so easily be lost in, they may be there, but so's he.
He's still here, and so is she, and it means something.
It always will.
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