[locked to Jeremy]

[allthesigns]

Is it true?

Did you get into a fight with Carter?

You haven't shown up for school and it's my turn to be really worried so if you could just let me know you're okay and

That would be good.

Comments

death is only an old door set in a garden wall;

[allthesigns]

Sarah's attention is drawn to the book when he glances at it, and she has no idea what it contains, is genuinely surprised when he speaks again, looking up at him abruptly. If Sarah's aware of statistics of angels of death, she's also aware of statistics and what people say about angels of vengeance. That they're flukes, mistakes that shouldn't have been created, that they don't live long the way they say these things about her kind. And it's just supposed to be accepted, it's a truth that cannot be avoided, it's the way the world works and has always worked and it won't change.

It's why there aren't many angels of death, and Charlie and Elizabeth are the only other ones she's ever met in her life.

It's why her father was disappointed when she didn't become an angel of knowledge like him, it's why her grandmother cried when she never, ever cried before in her life.

She doesn't know that she'd want to read a book and just find it'd give her false hope, though Rachel Dawes would say there is nothing false about hope. Nothing is going to make it better, nothing she says or does, and Jeremy wants her to read it. She swallows past the tighteness in her throat, tightness that pinches it almost painfully, but she gives a small nod.

"Okay," she says quietly, as if it's simple, and maybe it is. It can be simple even when it's never easy. "I'll read it when you're done."

She can't find it in herself to say anything about the rest, not when he's lost in grief and she's still feeling miserable about everything. What's hope and what's denial? How do you distinguish between what's true and just a feeling? Jess said that was the million dollar question and she finds it really is.

Either way, she would never stop being his friend unless that's what he wanted.

She doesn't have it in her to just let people who. The angel understands and knows exactly when it's time to let go, why it's necessary, why it can be a good thing--Sarah doesn't. She may have some regrets that she's piled up throughout her life but absolutely none of them involve him or befriending him. It's one of the best things she's ever done, and a lot of good things have come from that one choice.

Sarah doesn't want to lose sight of that.

It's just really hard when he's so upset and there's nothing to be done about it.

Sarah winces lightly, since she wouldn't have been able to mask her reaction when she saw him. "I just had no idea," she says thickly, once again swallowing back down that feeling in her throat that won't go away. She'd had no idea it was to this extent. A fight to this extreme, and she isn't going to forget how he looks, how much it hurt to look at him and know what led him to it.

She smiles back a little. "That's reassuring, thank you, I wouldn't want her to."

Elena and Sarah both will be worrying about him for days to come, and that just can't be helped. Even Wes is likely going to hover and make sure Jeremy isn't making any big movements and he's resting as much as possible, as restless as he may get with it. The better he follows Martha's rules to a full recuperation, the sooner he'll get better and he can get back up and go back to business as usual.