[locked to Jeremy]
Is it true?
Did you get into a fight with Carter?
You haven't shown up for school and it's my turn to be really worried so if you could just let me know you're okay and
That would be good.
Did you get into a fight with Carter?
You haven't shown up for school and it's my turn to be really worried so if you could just let me know you're okay and
That would be good.
Yeah, it's true.
Let me guess, Sherri told you?
I'm sorry. I wanted to tell you myself but I've been sleeping most of the day, and I didn't really want to tell you over text message or anything.
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[They just talked about this. He was the one that talked about anger in a constructive way.] I don't understand.
Yeah, it got pretty intense. [Pause.] I sort of kind of broke her nose. Maybe.
Okay. You didn't answer if you were okay or not and if you didn't come to school, I'm going to go out on a limb and say it was pretty bad.
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I want to explain it to you, but I'd
I'd want to do it in person more than over the journals.
You wait what? Seriously? That's seriously awesome, but I'm sorry about whatever she said and sorry you had to deal with that
I'm
yeah, it was really bad. He wasn't alone. Alek was there and stepped in thankfully. I don't think I'll be able to come back this week.
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I'm just really worried about you and your phone was turned off.
Yeah, seriously. She'll need... a nose job. Another one. It's okay that's the last thing you should be thinking about.
[.-.]
A whole week? Jeremy. [Waugh /FLAIL .___.] You said you wouldn't look for a fight.
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I know. I forgot to turn it back on and yeah, I was asleep since last night except about an hour while I walked home and Elena talked to me. [And the movement to get to his phone and it'd probably hurt to text rn. ._."]
She deserved it, and maybe she'll back off now.
[jrkle;a FWAUGH /flails too ._.]
I got really angry and I couldn't think straight. I wasn't looking for a fight because of what you told me. I didn't.
You should come over. I hate the thought of you seeing me like this, but I want to see you. So I don't know if you want to see me or not. It's not really going to help with the worry I don't think just
I'll be okay. [EVENTUALLY lmfao after a month or so of healing, there might be no bruises left. ;;]
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If it's bad enough you have to rest for a week it's not okay, and I don't care if he went up to you or the other way around, it could've ended even worse and I get that your sister's probably already told you all of this so I don't know why I am.
Yeah, maybe. I'm in detention for it but it was worth it for what she said.
[And that stings for some reason, even if it was far, far from her mind.]
I wasn't assuming it was about me or what I said at all.
You promised and I trusted that, which is why I know something else must've happened.
I'd worry more if I couldn't see you at all.
Once I can get out of here I'll come over, and I'll mentally prepare myself for it or try really hard to.
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Okay.
I'll tell Elena you're coming over.
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There's detention to finish, for one, and she felt really, really confused after their short conversation. She knows she's missing pieces to it, but the resistance aided on her own uncertainty. It still doesn't win out over the worry, and she knows she needs to see him. It's what she wanted to do from the moment Sherri opened her stupid, big, fat mouth even if she is preparing for the worst.
It's bad if Jeremy was angry enough he couldn't see straight. It's bad if he's finding it hard to talk about when they've never had that problem before.
Elena's finally catching up on some reading for class in the living room when Sarah drops by, and she can tell the other girl's tired and concerned herself. That alone gives her some inkling as to how their weekend went, and her heart drops to her stomach before she ever knocks on Jeremy's door.
Sarah takes a deep breath and then softly raps her knuckles against the wooden frame.
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He wanted to make sure he was awake when Sarah did come over, and he doesn't blame her for not coming over immediately. Jeremy doesn't realize that he's made her feel uncertain or awkward though. He thinks she's angry at him or disappointed in him, because they did just talk about it. It's the second that she could feel that would be worse, but he understands why she'd not come over immediately.
It's bad, and it was bad. It's still bad, because he's bruised all over, under his shirt, across his face, and everything still hurts more than he can describe, but he's awake when she comes over, reading that book that Elena gave to him. He's only made it through the first chapter, but it's helped already.
The textbooks that he used to research, they're still up on his desk, piled up in a row, and he feels his heart freeze at the sound of the knock on the door. It clenches up tightly, and he swallows past the tight feeling in his throat. Jeremy slides his hand over the book and closes ( ... )
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She will eventually, but it's not the first thing that grabs her attention.
It's the sound of his voice and she slowly, almost ruefully, opens the door before stepping in. There's school stuff and non-school stuff she brought over, and she almost drops it all once she gets a good look at him, the breath knocked out of her in one fast, painful swoop.
Sarah thought she'd mentally prepared herself. It's not like she hasn't seen gruesome deaths or hasn't had to help people dying that were severely beaten up before in her life, but it still doesn't prepare her because it's him, and she still doesn't understand.
She is simply not prepared or expecting to be greeted with him looking like... that. There are no words for it, and her mouth parts open when the breath doesn't return and she immediately feels like she's been struck. How does someone hurt someone else like that? She is horrified, and her eyes burn, and she finds she can't say anything at first, paralyzed in place.
"Jeremy, what--" she says ( ... )
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The fact that it's something that came out of nowhere (in her mind) adds to the reaction. They recently talked about it in such a calm manner, agreed about needing their anger, but also needing to find more constructive ways to release it. Not that she's one to talk at the moment, having broken a girl's nose, but it's nothing in comparison to how he looks, and she has that similar feeling in the pit of her stomach, like she'll be physically ill.
Sarah's face crumples when he apologizes and she shakes her head, since that's not--she didn't come here for an apology. "I'm not mad at you. I'm not anything but worried and confused. It is different. Why isn't it different? I don't--" and she stops talking immediately, the words dying in her throat when he begins to speak of losing more people, as if a cold, clammy hand ( ... )
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It's just the pain on the outside, and it's literally nothing in comparison to how everything else felt, how it can still feel if he is not careful. There are moments where it overwhelms him still, and he doesn't know what to do with the feelings. But he's doing better, but he's reading all of this ( ... )
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She bites on the insides of her cheeks and doesn't say anything else.
"I'm not," she says, and her voice almost cracks but it doesn't. "I was and now I'm... not. I mean, I'm mad, but just... in general."
She doesn't know how it works. How she could be furious with him and concerned when she was standing at the other side of the door and now looking at him she can't remember ever being furious at all, there's just the concern and the ache and the slow, painful, cold realization as the rest of the pieces start fitting together.
Sarah doesn't know what to think. She'd had no idea any of this was going on throughout the whole weekend, and it amazes her so much ( ... )
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I know she says, and he turns his head as he looks at her. There’s no mistaking the expression on his face for anything other than all that pain that he’s feeling. His face crumples this time, and he tugs her in by her arm, pulling her against his chest and sliding his arms behind her, to hold her close against his chest.
Jeremy presses a bruised kiss on top of her head as she's pressed up against his chest, and he feels that fire, that pain, that grief, and that anger all twisted up inside of him until it's hard to breathe. And he feels himself shaking, because it's wrong and everything's dark and it shouldn't be that way but it is ( ... )
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