And all at once I realize- my life has become a boring pop song and everyone is singing along...
I feel as if I should update since I haven't really in awhile. It's become hard to write in this for some reason. I've started and ended up not posting about five entries in the past week. I felt really alone for some reason this week and I did alot of thinking about that yesterday. The reason it feels like people are drifting from me is because I'm letting them. I can't sit here forever and expect others to make the effort. If I want to be with people I need to stop pushing them away. The reason I end up feeling unhappy is because I let myself feel that way. Truthfully, my life is not half as bad as I let myself think sometimes... I was thinking about the way I felt when I first got back from Europe, how I resolved to not let the little things get to me this year and then I did. I've let stupid little things build up and drag me down. I lost sight of the fact that my life is what I make it not what it makes itself. I have the ability to make things the way I want them to be, if I would just get up and do it.
In other news, I've become addictied to the Jack's Mannequin CD. I seriously think if I stop playing it I may go through withdrawls... I got my first blisters from my new pair of pointe shoes. They make me happy though, definetly the best pair I've had up til now... Calculus is making me really happy. It's kind of sad that I like it so much that it has been making my less than perfect days seem 100% better... For a bit I was thinking that I didn't want to go to Homecomming anymore, but now I'm excited again... I started my UF essays yesterday and they are really hard. It was really starting to frustrate me that I have that much trouble putting what I want to say into words... No school tomorrow, that makes me happy. I need a break.
~Sarah
In other news, I've become addictied to the Jack's Mannequin CD. I seriously think if I stop playing it I may go through withdrawls... I got my first blisters from my new pair of pointe shoes. They make me happy though, definetly the best pair I've had up til now... Calculus is making me really happy. It's kind of sad that I like it so much that it has been making my less than perfect days seem 100% better... For a bit I was thinking that I didn't want to go to Homecomming anymore, but now I'm excited again... I started my UF essays yesterday and they are really hard. It was really starting to frustrate me that I have that much trouble putting what I want to say into words... No school tomorrow, that makes me happy. I need a break.
~Sarah