so tired now...
(8 days...)
i wish you would
come pick me up
take me out
fuck me up
steal my records
i may have just had my final class at wheaton college, but probably not...
who am i kidding? history has shown, time and time again, that i will not be accepted to a better school than this. this is all i've known, really. maybe that's why i can't stand it here. it's just become so predictable. the failed friendships, the guises, the lack of schoolwork and overall activity, the never ending complacency...
it's such a feeling that i've never had before, the feeling of walking into a room full of people, and not one looking up to greet you. it's as if i've transcended some sort of molecular law. i'm officially invisible. that's the fancy way of saying i'm completely ignored by the majority of people i considered to be my friends first semester.
and honestly, that's really why i want to go to another school now. it used to be the academics, but now, i just don't want to come back here next year. because there will be people to avoid and of course i will have to ask myself over and over, everyday, why this is so...and then i'll feel like some disease.
sweet lil' gal...
i wish you would
come pick me up
take me out
fuck me up
steal my records
i may have just had my final class at wheaton college, but probably not...
who am i kidding? history has shown, time and time again, that i will not be accepted to a better school than this. this is all i've known, really. maybe that's why i can't stand it here. it's just become so predictable. the failed friendships, the guises, the lack of schoolwork and overall activity, the never ending complacency...
it's such a feeling that i've never had before, the feeling of walking into a room full of people, and not one looking up to greet you. it's as if i've transcended some sort of molecular law. i'm officially invisible. that's the fancy way of saying i'm completely ignored by the majority of people i considered to be my friends first semester.
and honestly, that's really why i want to go to another school now. it used to be the academics, but now, i just don't want to come back here next year. because there will be people to avoid and of course i will have to ask myself over and over, everyday, why this is so...and then i'll feel like some disease.
sweet lil' gal...