Death, be not Proud, By John Donne
" One short sleep past, we wake enternally,
And death shall be no more. Death, thou shalt die."
So I feel like taking a break from writting my paper, yes this is the paper I've been putting off all week... I guess its not really bad but I just haven't had enough energy mentally or physically to get it done. (haha the paper is about John Donne (pronounced Done)) ok anyways... I didn't go to hitting practice today after our games were cancled for the weekend (thank goodness) cuz I really didn't have much energy left to play, and if I were to play the games today and the games we were going to have tomorrow (got cancled as well cuz of rain) then I would def. be dead come monday. I have this paper to write and lots of drafting to do. Blah. Some of the games got moved to monday, so thats not really going to help me any cuz its still taking away a day from me. Game monday... game wednesday... game saturday... game tuesday... game wednesday... game saturday... game sunday... then we get 4 days off and games friday and saturday.
and thats the month of april for me. Yeah.... when am I supposed to complete my entire drafting project (this is in addition to the one I have due tuesday) BLAH!! I hate the end of the year.
Tuesday I'm supposed to be trying to test out of my math class.... I guess I'm going to have to put that off till either after class tuesday or thursday. *sigh* why does life have to get so hard right now. I just feel like I have no room for error and I have to push my self even harder for softball since its conference time. I want to do so many things and yes granted.... I do sit on my computer and watch tv for a couple hours each day usually, but thats cuz I have no energy to do anything else. I get up at the crack of dawn go to class, go to more class, go to practice, come home eat and get online, look at some of my homework, maybe do an hours worth and by that time I'm done. I'm still tired from spring break!!! I just need a week off with no ball or no practice, or only ball and no classes, neither of which will ever happen. I just need to unplug my tv and computer, lol. But if I did then I'd just sleep, lol. I found though when I went to the library to get my books for this paper then I could handle going there and going up stairs where no one was at and doing some work. If I take my self to a place where there is nothing to do around me and I feel that I can devote all my time and energy to something then I think it would get done. So I'm going to try this approach to get through the last month or so of school. I really need to push my self to make all a's. Surveying I might have a B in but I'm hoping this test I took friday (on 2 1/2 hours of sleep) I did well on, as well as my project he hasn't graded yet. Math I'm pretty sure I have an A in but I did get a 70 on my midterm cuz I really didn't care cuz I had plans of testing out of the class. Residential Design I'm pretty sure I have an A in as well. I think all except maybe 2 or 3 sets of drawings I've gotten all a's or high b's on. My pc software class I should have a low A in. I have had like 2 things turned in late to that class so since everything is on a points scale, if its late she's given me a 7/10 on it. Blah. And finally english I def. have an A in (granted I get this paper in, lol). So I mean I am in a position to have great grades again, and I want to make sure I keep it that way. (yeah I'm sure none of u really cared about that whole novel on my grades but they are important to me) In high school I never really worked hard towards any of my grades. I could get by with out doing homework, and with doing my papers the night before they were due. And I was just lazy, I know that. Im trying not to be that way in college. But I'm just more mentally and physically drained. Sports in HS were demanding and I played a lot of them... but I don't know, its just different.
Alright well I've taken a long enough break. I guess I better get back to writting my outline, and then my draft paper. I just have to remember my own words of just taking it day by day and making the most of each one.
<3 Beth
And death shall be no more. Death, thou shalt die."
So I feel like taking a break from writting my paper, yes this is the paper I've been putting off all week... I guess its not really bad but I just haven't had enough energy mentally or physically to get it done. (haha the paper is about John Donne (pronounced Done)) ok anyways... I didn't go to hitting practice today after our games were cancled for the weekend (thank goodness) cuz I really didn't have much energy left to play, and if I were to play the games today and the games we were going to have tomorrow (got cancled as well cuz of rain) then I would def. be dead come monday. I have this paper to write and lots of drafting to do. Blah. Some of the games got moved to monday, so thats not really going to help me any cuz its still taking away a day from me. Game monday... game wednesday... game saturday... game tuesday... game wednesday... game saturday... game sunday... then we get 4 days off and games friday and saturday.
and thats the month of april for me. Yeah.... when am I supposed to complete my entire drafting project (this is in addition to the one I have due tuesday) BLAH!! I hate the end of the year.
Tuesday I'm supposed to be trying to test out of my math class.... I guess I'm going to have to put that off till either after class tuesday or thursday. *sigh* why does life have to get so hard right now. I just feel like I have no room for error and I have to push my self even harder for softball since its conference time. I want to do so many things and yes granted.... I do sit on my computer and watch tv for a couple hours each day usually, but thats cuz I have no energy to do anything else. I get up at the crack of dawn go to class, go to more class, go to practice, come home eat and get online, look at some of my homework, maybe do an hours worth and by that time I'm done. I'm still tired from spring break!!! I just need a week off with no ball or no practice, or only ball and no classes, neither of which will ever happen. I just need to unplug my tv and computer, lol. But if I did then I'd just sleep, lol. I found though when I went to the library to get my books for this paper then I could handle going there and going up stairs where no one was at and doing some work. If I take my self to a place where there is nothing to do around me and I feel that I can devote all my time and energy to something then I think it would get done. So I'm going to try this approach to get through the last month or so of school. I really need to push my self to make all a's. Surveying I might have a B in but I'm hoping this test I took friday (on 2 1/2 hours of sleep) I did well on, as well as my project he hasn't graded yet. Math I'm pretty sure I have an A in but I did get a 70 on my midterm cuz I really didn't care cuz I had plans of testing out of the class. Residential Design I'm pretty sure I have an A in as well. I think all except maybe 2 or 3 sets of drawings I've gotten all a's or high b's on. My pc software class I should have a low A in. I have had like 2 things turned in late to that class so since everything is on a points scale, if its late she's given me a 7/10 on it. Blah. And finally english I def. have an A in (granted I get this paper in, lol). So I mean I am in a position to have great grades again, and I want to make sure I keep it that way. (yeah I'm sure none of u really cared about that whole novel on my grades but they are important to me) In high school I never really worked hard towards any of my grades. I could get by with out doing homework, and with doing my papers the night before they were due. And I was just lazy, I know that. Im trying not to be that way in college. But I'm just more mentally and physically drained. Sports in HS were demanding and I played a lot of them... but I don't know, its just different.
Alright well I've taken a long enough break. I guess I better get back to writting my outline, and then my draft paper. I just have to remember my own words of just taking it day by day and making the most of each one.
<3 Beth