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This evening was nice. Chris and his family came to eat at the restaurant and his aunt left me a nice tip. It was so sweet of them to come visit me, I wish I hadn't been so busy. I also made really good money.
I feel like lately though I've been just doing what I have to to get through the day. I haven't been doing what I need to do. I miss Chris very much. But, it's not crazy like it was before where I'd come home crying all the time, because I didn't get to see him since he was working early the next day. I haven't spent any meaningful time with him lately. Mostly when we hang out it's for an hour or so and we don't do anything eventful- sit around, eat, watch tv... etc. I feel like he is drifting away.. but not drifting, that's the wrong word.... He's just on the other side of the bridge, but I can't get to him because the bridge isn't there. I feel like I have to beat it out of him to say "I love you." I'm not sad, because I know he loves me, I just miss him... I miss the times when we are together and we really get to talk. I miss the fun times we spent together. I don't see it getting better soon. I have to work like crazy over Christmas break so I can make up what I spend on Christmas/birthday (dad and Chris), then save up for kayaks. And I need a new-er car at least, which will also cost some money. Chris will (hopefully) start working full time in January, and I will be finishing up my last classes before I transfer. I have to get into a college, find a place to live-first, last month's rent, security. And then we are going to the Bahamas in the summer. I want to take some trips during spring break and summer, maybe to PA or GA to see my family, I want Chris to meet them. Just a vent, I love you Chris.
Teresa
I feel like lately though I've been just doing what I have to to get through the day. I haven't been doing what I need to do. I miss Chris very much. But, it's not crazy like it was before where I'd come home crying all the time, because I didn't get to see him since he was working early the next day. I haven't spent any meaningful time with him lately. Mostly when we hang out it's for an hour or so and we don't do anything eventful- sit around, eat, watch tv... etc. I feel like he is drifting away.. but not drifting, that's the wrong word.... He's just on the other side of the bridge, but I can't get to him because the bridge isn't there. I feel like I have to beat it out of him to say "I love you." I'm not sad, because I know he loves me, I just miss him... I miss the times when we are together and we really get to talk. I miss the fun times we spent together. I don't see it getting better soon. I have to work like crazy over Christmas break so I can make up what I spend on Christmas/birthday (dad and Chris), then save up for kayaks. And I need a new-er car at least, which will also cost some money. Chris will (hopefully) start working full time in January, and I will be finishing up my last classes before I transfer. I have to get into a college, find a place to live-first, last month's rent, security. And then we are going to the Bahamas in the summer. I want to take some trips during spring break and summer, maybe to PA or GA to see my family, I want Chris to meet them. Just a vent, I love you Chris.
Teresa