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[allscrewedup]

everyone pretty much always forgets my birthday.
its okay though. i don't really mind.

truth is, this year i'd like to forget all about it as well.

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[allscrewedup]

alex,
i don't think you realize how much it meant to me that you remembered my birthday and called me last night.
seriously.
even though i was pretty much half asleep when you called, it put the BIGGEST smile on my face.
and i don't usually smile so much anymore, so that says a lot.
the littlest things make me happy, and it meant the world to me, so thanks love.

i miss you, kid. i really really do.
i miss talking to you and seeing you at school and i especially miss getting hugs from you. thats one of my favorite things about you-
you give the best hugs ever. last year when things were so fucked up and my best friend died and nobody understood, you were always
there to give me a hug, and when you did, i knew that you really meant it. and it helped. more than you realize.
and you were always there to listen to me bitch about a certain JERK whose name i wont mention, without complaining at all.
and even when i didn't want to say anything, i knew you'd always be there to listen when/if i was ready to talk.
you're an amazing guy, you know that?
don't EVER forget that. or let anybody tell you any different.

last night you sounded really sad.
it made me sad, because i really want you to be happy. you deserve it.
and sometimes you say that you're fine, or even happy.
but i don't think that you really are.
i'm sorry that you gave up on all your friends, but if they were being shady, you're probably better off without them.
sure it gets a little lonely. trust me, i know.
but i promise you next year you'll meet so many new people and you'll be fine.
i know you're gonna have so much fun. i'm seriously jealous of you guys.
so don't worry about it.

and until then, you can always come hang out with me.
really.
when me and connie saw you at graduation, we were talking about how we should totally all hang out this summer.
we really should.
it would make me happy.!

so pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease come visit me, okay? no excuses, buddy. i don't live that far away.
and you won't get lost. if connie can find it, ANYBODY can. haha.

i love you sweetie.
thanks for always being there
♥ ♥

[pseudonaievite]

Jessica. You flatter me. You know i am here for you becuase i really do appreciate you for everything you have done for me. I know we started off rough, and i know i hurt you REALLY bad sometimes, but the simple fact that you found it in that immense heart of your to forgive me, meant the world to me. You are worth more than you give yourself credit for. You are a wonderful person. You are absolutely beautiful, inside and out. I know it gets bad, but i hope that you find comfort in the fact that i am and will always be here for you, no matter what happens, no matter what goes down. You know. I miss you and you know that too. One of these days i have to call up connie and we will both go and hang out. Reminice about the time we were young, the time we were stupid and naive. The times when we should have listened to one another. Or i should have listened to you... You know, the time when everything was better, you suppose? I am glad i can help you feel like i did. It make me feel human, and not artificial. You are amazing,so call me, ill call you, and we'll call connie. Set something up. Bring Charmiane or katy along too and give them NO FUCKING EXCUSES. HAHA. Alright. Heep your head up kiddo. It all gets better in the end. And we are only beginning. Love you and goodnight.
-Alex