update
Well this week has been hectic. English IV is killing me. Cross country is killing me. Work is killing me. WOMEN are killing me. God i should have died like a year ago, lol. Well saturday is my last cross country meet, then its all done so theres one stress factor gone. I am about to just quit my work so there will be another factor gone. 2 down 2 to go. Well english will be done in like 10 weeks so thats good to i guess. BUT women on the other hand, god they confuse the hell out of me. One day it will be okay for me to poke them or just mess around. LIke shameless flirting, then another day if i get within 2 feet of them they almost rip my head off. Its confusing. Tooooo confusing. Then i was thinking about trying to go out with someone, but i just got out of a relationship that failed miserably because their parents were to strict. And the girl i was thinking about parents are even stricter about things. I'm not sure if i can handle that again. Only time will tell, but i'm running out of that as well. I'm so confused. Maybe if i just go sleep for a year everything will be better. Then again everything will prolly be ten times worse. Then there is the whole college thing, which i'm not even going to attempt to go into.
Well the weekend is here. Cross in the morning at 8 am. I will lose again like always. I know that i am only doing it to train, but damn i hate losing. I feel like going all out and practically killing myself so i can at least be half as good as some of the people out there. I might just do that tomorrow. Movies on sunday if the plans work out. I won't get my hopes up though because it seems everything has been falling apart for me lately. Paper due on monday that i should be doing now, tomorrow, and the next day, but will end up doing it in 1st hour.
HOLY crap, i just read that over and it seems like my life is horrible. Oh well. Night.
Well the weekend is here. Cross in the morning at 8 am. I will lose again like always. I know that i am only doing it to train, but damn i hate losing. I feel like going all out and practically killing myself so i can at least be half as good as some of the people out there. I might just do that tomorrow. Movies on sunday if the plans work out. I won't get my hopes up though because it seems everything has been falling apart for me lately. Paper due on monday that i should be doing now, tomorrow, and the next day, but will end up doing it in 1st hour.
HOLY crap, i just read that over and it seems like my life is horrible. Oh well. Night.