Fuck.
I am not even pissed off, I'm not sure what I am. Frustrated I suppose. The argument I had with andrew sort of broke the camels back in that I felt entirely useless after being told to go back to the dorms when I wanted to help my friend Beth go to the hospital. I guess there wasn't room, I just wanted to feel useful by helping someone, it's what i'm used to and I am not used to being the one who can't help. At home I generally provide help a lot. Ontop of it Andrew decided to take something simple and just not accept my opinion on it. Simple being DDR. A conversation about DDR. He said it was stupid. I said it was fun. Instead of accepting it he continued to add "it's stupid" after everything I said, so of course I got angry. He claims I was taking out my anger over not being helpful earlier on him, but really I think he was looking for an argument cuz he was bored or something, who knows. We have not had stupid pointless arguments for a while, there was one but it was at least somewhat relevant to emotions and stuff going on, not retarded like this one. Granted we're not arguing really, just bickering. But it's enough to annoy me since i decided to not storm off and go up to my own room cuz i didnt want to blow it out of proportion so I follow him upstairs only to have him go into the lounge and i was like why are we in here and he said he didnt think i'd follow him so he didnt go to his room. Meaning he didnt want me to follow him, but I don't just march on into his room, even if I do practically live there since it's where i eat, sleep, study, have all my clothes and everything, he nor his roomy are in there so i'm not gonna just march on in. Ontop of it he's listening to comedy now loudly. I mean, really? Really?
Then he tells me I've been bitchy ever since we left to meet up with everyone at the healthcenter which makes no sense cuz i wasnt even really talking to him until we left the health center lol.
Ugh, I know i'm ranting about that stupid argument but that's not even what i'm mad about. I'm just mad without a purpose at this point because nothing ever seems to happen that is really all that great. I don't see the gruop ever, and even when I do it's not the same as hanging out with people at home. The people here can't just sit around and talk and have fun, it's weird. It's like something has to be happening all the time, or we just get bored or sleep.
I don't know, I dont even tink I'd be complaining at all if I were in a good mood, but it seems like today is just one of those days. There's always gonna be days where just nothing makes sense and everything is skrewed up no matter what, but it doesnt mean I can't complain about them!
Then he tells me I've been bitchy ever since we left to meet up with everyone at the healthcenter which makes no sense cuz i wasnt even really talking to him until we left the health center lol.
Ugh, I know i'm ranting about that stupid argument but that's not even what i'm mad about. I'm just mad without a purpose at this point because nothing ever seems to happen that is really all that great. I don't see the gruop ever, and even when I do it's not the same as hanging out with people at home. The people here can't just sit around and talk and have fun, it's weird. It's like something has to be happening all the time, or we just get bored or sleep.
I don't know, I dont even tink I'd be complaining at all if I were in a good mood, but it seems like today is just one of those days. There's always gonna be days where just nothing makes sense and everything is skrewed up no matter what, but it doesnt mean I can't complain about them!