im gonna miss you till the day i die........

[alloluv]

why chitty? why?? im sorry for everything that happen, i really am. oh god. i dont hate you baby, i really dont. i am still in love with you. i wish i had told you that yesterday instead of what i said. i didnt mean it!!! i didnt know how i could help....oh please forgive me? please god look after him. lukey, i love you... so many people do, why did you do this? i need you! all i wanna do is talk to you. i dont want hugs from anyone else right now, jsut you, but i cant. ill never be able to hold you after you have a shit day at work, i wont be able to write mean letters to wade for you, i wont be able to buy you the alien quadrilogy anymore. i wont be able to have your babies....imogen adelaide, baby do you remeber?? can you see me?? do you know how much i will miss you??? DO YOU???? do you know how hurt everyone is. so many people love you....that did and still do, but you couldnt see that. i wish you had called me lukey. i could have looked after you! i could of helped. i should of helped sooner. im so so so sorry. you had so much in front of you and im sorry you couldnt see that baby
Please lukey, its tilly and i need tuddles....but now ill never get them...and neither will you.
where ever you are i hope you feel better now baby and are having jesus pack your bong..... i love you...