everyonesGOTtheirCHAINStoBREAK

[allofthemhurt]

i feel the heat inside of my skin...and i know that something old has replenished its heart beat...that jealousy and rage, thats what it is..as i hit the door..over and over and over again...i feel my arm hurt, and my skin bleeds...my knuckles crush under the brick wall..and i stand their..crushing my pride, and demolishing my ego...i feel my last candle go out...as i completely lose control, and drown in my own anger..allowing the hate to over-whelm me...i cry, and scream, and fight myself off....and then i see nothing, i feel nothing, and i do nothing...i allow no time to pass, and age none within those hours...that turn into days...i cant take myself and my hurt...the lie that turns into lies, that turns to deceipt, and then turns to mistake, and wrong...are broken promises and false hopes, lies, deceipt and embarsement..all covered with a five lettered-one syllabul word...of "sorry"?¿ i cant feel my fingers moving...and yet its been six hours since i lost it all...i love my one, and will kill for her...but then with this i see nothing at all...i cant believe..that she, of all, would lie to me...i can not breathe, and will not sleep, a zombie i am...inside of mine..i cant make sense...and lose control..i only want someone to hold my hand, and rub my back, as i cry my eyes until they run dry...why i ask...why is it this...why is it us...how can so much go wrong...and end up right...god i love her...when none wants it...everyone wants one thing..me to be without her...and all i want is her to be happy...

is it a sickess i ask you..must you lie to pass your days...must you hurt meto live your life...why do you do it...i work my tail to the bone, to please you and give you everything...i willingly do everything you ask..without a secind to go by...i do everything i can to be perfect..yet you plan and talk behind my back.."she is a girl" was what was said..."movie at nine" was all he said...i heard my love hit the ground...and heard my hopes fall away...it hurts so much..and yet i cry..i cant type now..kgqw4ymkjrhqwmryhfsmfshnywrmyrywjn m