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I have no one. I have no family, no one and only. I have a handful of friends who won't be around for much longer than a year from now, and definitely not forever. There hasn't been a single person that I have confided in... in years. I have no real connection with anything or anyone. I understand the value of life, but I don't involve myself with others. In my head I am trying as hard as I can to numb myself to feeling, to make myself content with living for nothing. In my heart I am dying, and I'm trying as hard as I can not to break down every second that I'm alone, because I'm scared it may be like this forever.