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i'm sorry. i've been really self centered lately. i have problems. i dunno how to deal with them. i can't seem to get over things i should've gotten over years ago. it's pathetic. i dunno why i play into it. my mind is a mess. and when i try i just make myself feel worse. but thats not an excuse. i take a lot of things for granted. like my beatiful girlfriend. i love her so much. she means the world to me. but i'm an asshole most of the time to her for no reason. i would give her anything she wanted. i just feel bad that i can't give her stuff like i used to. and i have my band and i neglect them. i should hang out with them more and be more chill. i dunno why i just can't relax. i dunno why i'm not really comfortable around people. all i know is i'm sorry. i just hope it's not too late.