What the fuck.......

[allmyonlydreams]

One of my BIGGEST pet peeves is not knowing what's going on in a situation where i'm involved. I know you can't know everything in life, but there are some things that are within your control. It bothers me when my friends are angry at me and don't tell me..or if they made any other decision concerning BOTH of us in our friendship without even letting me know what's up. HI IF YOU'RE MAD JUST SAY IT AND I'LL DO WHATEVER YOU WANT ME TO DO...leave you alone, talk it out..it doesn't matter, whatever it is you need. People who know me well enough know that i'll do anything for my friends...they mean the world to me and I try my very best to respect and care for the relationships I have with them. Just please have the decency to let me know what the hell is going on. It bothers me because I hate going around thinking everything is ok when in reality it isn't...and I have a ridiculously wild imagination...so if I don't know what's really going on, my mind will fill in the blanks for itself. I just don't think it's fair to me..or to our friendship...I understand if you have problems. That's fine, we all do. And if you want me to leave you alone, then tell me instead of just ignoring me. To me, that's just plain disrespecting my friendship with you. Like...this whole time we've been friends, been there for each other through all this shit...and all of a sudden something happens and it's all gone, with no explanation. I don't even have to know WHY you're upset or WHAT you're upset about. All I need to know is that you're going through shit and that you need time alone or that you'd rather not talk to me right now or somethinggg...

It just hurts..do you not want to be my friend anymore? Or do you just need time? Or am I just imagining all of this?

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