My head is fucking spinning
So today I drove up to my father's house in Methuen....I didn't really have any plans so I watched birds for a bit, walked the dog,then walked around the old neighboorhood for awhile... I wandered a few old haunts I had when I was young and thought alot about how amazing life was when I was a kid...bike rides,getting dirty in the woods, tree forts, skateboarding on the street near my house with a ton of kids always, walking with my dog(my best friend)..this was before girls and other such variables like having a car and responsibilities entered the picture and fucked everything up..over the years all of the neighboorhood kids filtered away until the only family left that I know of is mine...this depresses me most of all...that no one is left...it's true what he says in Stand By me...you never do make frineds like you had back then...ever...
To finish my afternoon I walked up to a little pond i used to hang around when I was a kid...used to have a sweet tree fort there...now it's all new developments surrounding what was once a whole bunch of nothing but woods...I fucking hate urban sprawl and developers...I sat on a wall and listened to Neil Young while I watched geese,turtles, and frogs move about...while I was sitting a random Golden Retriever from the neighboorhood came and rested his head on my lap and I petted him for awhile...made me miss Roxy...after awhile a few kids came to skip stones...I watched them for a bit then decided to talk to them...I told them a few stories about all the fun I used to have growing up in that neighboorhood..they seemed amazed that there was even a world outside of video games..I directed them to a trail that led them to a bunch of cool stuff like other ponds and abandoned cars and an awesome sand pit...geez, do kids play outside anymore?...all of this set to depressing music totally bummed me out..it's as if I hadn't yet realized my childhood was over...I mean what the fuck i'm 26 you'd think I'd get it by now..but it was like I just realized I was no longer a kid but an adult talking about the "good old days"...my head is so fucked up all i wanna do is sleep.........wake me up when I'm 10 again and its time for dinner...because after that I have a few more hours till dark to explore and think about nothing but how much I love summers..remember summers guys?....I'm starting to forget them
To finish my afternoon I walked up to a little pond i used to hang around when I was a kid...used to have a sweet tree fort there...now it's all new developments surrounding what was once a whole bunch of nothing but woods...I fucking hate urban sprawl and developers...I sat on a wall and listened to Neil Young while I watched geese,turtles, and frogs move about...while I was sitting a random Golden Retriever from the neighboorhood came and rested his head on my lap and I petted him for awhile...made me miss Roxy...after awhile a few kids came to skip stones...I watched them for a bit then decided to talk to them...I told them a few stories about all the fun I used to have growing up in that neighboorhood..they seemed amazed that there was even a world outside of video games..I directed them to a trail that led them to a bunch of cool stuff like other ponds and abandoned cars and an awesome sand pit...geez, do kids play outside anymore?...all of this set to depressing music totally bummed me out..it's as if I hadn't yet realized my childhood was over...I mean what the fuck i'm 26 you'd think I'd get it by now..but it was like I just realized I was no longer a kid but an adult talking about the "good old days"...my head is so fucked up all i wanna do is sleep.........wake me up when I'm 10 again and its time for dinner...because after that I have a few more hours till dark to explore and think about nothing but how much I love summers..remember summers guys?....I'm starting to forget them