A Valentine's Day Fanfic (Still Doll)
Title: Still Doll
Pairing: Chii x Yatsuiko
Genre: Romance
Author's Note: Seriously, I don't know why "Still Doll" is the title. *Maybe because I was listening to Kanon Wakeshima during that time?*
Anyway, here's the link for the Takaki x Ayuki fic made by yatsuiko-chan : yatsuiko-chan.livejournal.com/14839.html#cutid1
It was the time of the year again. Pink and shades of red were all over the place. Couples were everywhere.
"Sugoii, ne~" A cheesy grin stretched all over the cake shop cashier's face as she felt giddiness around her. Who couldn't blame her? It's Valentine's Day, anyway.
"Yo, Yatsuiko-chan, do you have any plans for the day?" Kusano-kun, the shop's delivery boy asked me. Unlike any delivery boys around the neighborhood, Kusano is always showing great enthusiasm in his every move. He never failed to smile even though he's already in his mid-thirties, raising a family and overwhelmed with debts.
"Well, I think I have some school work to do..." I smiled a little, suggesting a little unsatisfaction for having little plans for the day.
"Uhm...I think I need to go...Good luck for today, guys! Bye!" Upon realizing my sudden loneliness for the rest of the day, I immediately left the shop without even looking back at Kusano and the Cashier for the last time.
The scent...the people...the scenes...they're just too awesome not to be caught on film. Minutes after I inched away from the already crowded cake shop, I pulled my camera out from my bag and took photos all around me. The warmth of romance all around... it was just too hard to resist. Deep inside me, I know that I harbor envy, but it is the fuzzy feeling that overwhelms me now... somehow, taking random pictures around me... it made me forget all about the loneliness.
I don't have any boyfriend or any friends to be with right now.
This fact is actually killing me--I feel like I’m the unluckiest person on earth when it comes to these things. Funny as it seems, I used to think I would never stress over these matters until I finish schooling--but it's like the other way around.
I slowly strolled around the rest of the vicinity--lovers are wearing their couple shirts, the girls are being escorted with guys who are gladly looking over them...
When will all of this happen to me?
"When will all of this happen to me?"
Somebody suddenly appeared right beside me, and with my surprise upon knowing who it was, I actually fell flat on the pavement.
"Oi, are you okay?" The pale, thin guy stretched out his hand to help me get up.
"I fell on the pavement, am I supposed to be okay?" I immediately pat my pants to get rid of dirt. For a moment, I was suddenly lost in his dark eyes. He suddenly gave me a really big grin that suggested me to get back in motion.
"Sorry, I should be going right now." I immediately ran away from the puppy-eyed guy and continued my quest to take more pictures.
"Awhh...shaky hands, stop being so shaky!"
Being masochistic, I let go of my camera, put my hand on the ground and stepped on it.
"This is not working!" Frustration took over me. I slowly stood up and punched the big tree beside me. I don't actually mind that there are tons of people looking at me at that moment. It may be ridiculous, but at least my hands stopped being very shaky.
"Yay~" I loudly remarked, feigning more attention from everybody else. I don't know, but I don't really care about it. I walked out of the scene walking with full poise, until...
"Oi~ your camera..."
I slowly and shamefully turned around to get my camera...
...and was actually surprised to see that guy once again...this time, my camera on his hand...
"Ah, arigatou." I tried to snatch my camera from his hand but he won't let go. I gave my full force to get my camera back but it looks like I can't do anything about it.
I looked up again at his face--his lips stretched out in a big smile.
"Ahhh~! That's Chinen Yuri-chaaaaan!!!" A group of teenage girls suddenly swarmed around him... losing him along with my camera.
"Oi! Oi! My camera! Hey! Wait! Let me in!" It was hard to reach the guy who's currently holding my camera as his hostage with all of the girls surrounding him.
Suddenly, the fangirls are all looking confused.
"Eh? Where's Chinen?!" Someone asked the rest of the girls looked around them--curiosity plastered on their faces.
And it all sunk in into me...
MY CAMERA. WHERE. DID. HE. GO?!
Suddenly alarmed, I immediately ran around to look for him. Oh no. He should still be here!
As I ran around, the usual scene on Valentine's Day rushed into me like it was a movie on repeat...only that this time, I hit "fast forward".
I stopped my tracks... almost giving up. I gulped and pouted and desperately screamed...
"WHERE ARE YOU YURI CHINEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNN?!"
Yeah, I kinda messed up everybody else's V-day after all.
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I never felt so lonely in my whole life until now.
My camera...even though it's not the best camera model out there... it had always been so special to me. I had spent so many special events with that camera and it kinda sucks that it's somewhere out there with Chinen Yuri (who, unfortunately, used to be my celebrity crush until NOW). What is he actually going to do with it?
"Camera-chan..."
"Camera-chan..."
It's close to dinnertime but I still haven't seen or heard any trace from my camera.
"Camera-chan...Please show up...I'm getting hungry..." Suddenly, tears fell from my eyes and I felt shaky all over. I felt the need to look for my camera once again so I immediately stood up from the park bench, wiped my tears and walked slowly across the dark streets of the city.
I felt like I don't know what I was doing. It's like my consciousness had been taken away from me. Everything felt so surreal in a bad way--it made me wanted to break down and cry to my heart's content. The cold wind raised goose bumps all over my body, making my stomach swirl in nervousness.
Slowly, I took one step after the other, inching toward an alley--hoping to find any trace of my camera. As I was about to enter, I heard someone’s voice that made me turn around and listen closely.
"Haven't you heard? Hey! Say! JUMP organized a little show and exhibit downtown? Are you going there?" The guy who passed by me excitedly reported to his caller.
Hey...Say...Jump...
...Exhibit.
I froze from where I am standing right then.
"Could it be?"
I ran towards the guy talking on the phone.
"Sir, do you know where JUMP be performing tonight?" I hysterically asked the unassuming stranger.
"Uh. I'm going there too; you might want to tag along, gorgeous?" The guy awkwardly brushed my hair which signaled me to take off and run away.
Oh no.
He's chasing me!
"Camera-chan, you are seriously..."
"...GOING TO GET ME KILLED!"
I ran faster.
I'm running so fast that I feel like flying.
I never got tired of moving these legs to run away from the maniac. I just need to run for my life...
…and for Camera-chan.
"Make it stop, please!" I mindlessly screamed across the street while looking back at my predator. He seemed so desperate than ever to catch me.
"Ouch!" I tripped on another person. My knees slipped straight into the pavement but the wound was not my main concern that time...
What if the person whom I bumped into was an accomplice?
Is this the end of my sanity? Or... maybe my life as a whole?
Suddenly, I was blinded by lights flashing right in front of me. I looked up to clear my vision and found myself in front of the JUMP exhibit.
"A-are y-you okay?" A familiar voice asked.
I stood up to immediately clean up. "My knees hit the pavement, am I supposed to be okay?!" I almost screamed out of horror. My predator is slowly walking towards my direction. I know that I should run away or something... but Camera-chan is somewhere here and my injured knees made me incapable to escape.
"Yo...help me, please~ Yatsuiko-chan~!" I looked down to check whoever the guy I bumped into was and to my surprise...
"Ch-Chinen-kun? H-how did..."
How did Chinen Yuri know my name?
"J-just help me out...OKAY?!"
Suddenly, pity for Chinen overwhelmed my heart...forcing me to help him get up. When he finally did, he looked straight at my predator's eyes.
Is he going to say something like in the movies?
Is he going to give him a scary threat?
"Sir, sorry but we have security guards over here and they obviously outnumber you. If you don't want to make things worse, please leave the girl alone... I beg of you... It's for your own benefit too, anyway." Chinen's childish voice broke out the tension surrounding me. I felt a little relieved when my predator slowly bowed his head and walked away.
Everything still felt surreal... but now it's like I don't want to be bitten by reality anymore.
I stood there...unable to say anything...not even "thank you" to the guy.
Suddenly, he walked towards me and gently put his right hand to my head.
"This hand had helped you earlier..."
"...this hand also got you into trouble..."
"...this hand made me stand up again to protect you..."
He fell silent as his right hand held my left hand. I couldn't actually blush right then.
"OUCH!"
I cried in pain as Chinen held the hand I used to punch the tree too tightly.
"Ah~ Ah~ Gomen, Yatsuiko-chan~"
Chinen gently held that hand and massaged it to soothe the pain. He even kissed my hand though I don't get the reason why he should do that.
The moment his breath touched my skin, I could feel a chill go down my spine.
This unknown feeling... it now overwhelms me. I don't know how to recover from what's happening right now. I don't know how to act or move like the way I was. All I can do is to let him do the work on my hand and stare at him.
"Yatsuiko-chan..."
His smile, it was the warmest smile I had ever seen. The numbness caused by the cold is almost gone. I had never felt so reassured until now.
"Yatsuiko-chan..."
I still don't have any clue on how he knew my name. I was never a celebrity and I never put my name on my camera. But it doesn't really matter now...
It was him who spoke my name with mere fascination and interest. His voice calling out my name is one of the rarest things to happen for a girl like me; a girl whose whole life is dedicated to mediocrity.
"Yatsuiko-chan..."
The mere fact that Chinen Yuri is standing in front of me... still holding my hand... I felt like I'm the luckiest creature in the world even just for this moment.
"Yatsuiko-chan..."
His smile got even bigger that I can't even see his pupils. His girly features showed up and his gentle hand slowly reached for my face.
All I can see is him.
All I can see is the perfection of this guy.
All I can feel is something unexplainable...
...something that I could only feel when he's near.
...something that I might never feel again.
"Chii~!"
A low voiced lad suddenly took my attention away from Chinen. I turned around and saw a tall, thin guy who is about the same age as us.
"Yuto-kun! This is the photographer, um... Yatsuiko-chan!" Chinen dragged me to his side with his arm wrapped around my shoulder. Yuto smiled at me and I did too in return.
"Than, shall we go inside now?" Yuto invited and I shook my head in agreement.
As we walked inside, Chinen immediately removed his arm from me as we drew closer to the hall.
As we entered, teenage girls were shouting and screaming as they catch a glimpse of Yuto and Chinen.
The two boys smiled at their fans and waved back at them-- both flashing their best smiles. But, I must admit that the way Chinen smiled at me earlier was still the best...at least, for me.
"Good Evening, Minna-san!" Arioka Daiki greeted the crowd from the stage.
The place looked like an auction house and I was shocked to see the pictures I took earlier all over the place.
"What's this?" I asked out of the blue.
Chinen stood in front of me and pinched my cheek.
"You'll find out soon!" Chinen giggled and climbed up to the stage.
All of them greeted the crowd and it was really lively around me. Even though I could barely take my attention off Chinen, it was refreshing to see the other members with smiles on their faces.
"Eh, Chii-chan, why are we all gathered here, anyway?" Yuto asked Chinen.
"Eh, it's our Valentine's show right? But why are we here with all those pictures?" The tall guy added.
"Well the truth is..."
Chinen's serious tone suddenly caught the attention of everyone. The crowd stopped screaming and cheering. All of their eyes were on the boy and even the other members of JUMP nailed their looks on Chinen.
"...all of you know that I'm really fond of browsing the internet, right?"
"...I came across this cool photography blog of a girl..." Chinen fixed his eyes on me which caught me off-guard. I couldn't help but stare back at him and feel his words.
"...she was someone whose works I really adore. She never got the popularity even though I really, really think that her photos are awesome... well, that's at least, for me..."
"...one day, she talked about the death of her best friend...that was actually exactly one year ago..."
I froze upon him saying those words.
It hit me.
It's been a year since I lost my best friend in an accident. I haven't even remembered.
"After that incident...she posted some pictures...but it was never good as the ones she once took. The new photos were all conveying dark images...loneliness...it was too much. Pain is evident. I once admired how she showed happiness. Now, all of his photos make me feel so sad..."
My tears suddenly fell and I couldn't help but kneel from where I'm standing as I broke down into tears. For the past few months, I always thought I am lonely. I never had any friends in school until my best friend...and now that she's gone, I don't actually know how to be accepted by others again.
"...the girl received negative feedback and decided to stay on hiatus. Until earlier today, I saw her with amusement on her face, and with her camera on her hand. She was taking pictures to her heart's content..."
Chinen went down the stage and stood in front of me.
"...Yatsuiko-chan..."
Upon hearing my name, I looked up at him. He knelt down and touched my arm.
"...you were never alone. There are people... like me... like the people who thought you're a great photographer...who supports you and wanted to see more of you.”
“Yatsuiko-chan..."
More tears flowed from my eyes. The cheerful boy wiped it and smiled at me. I let go of his hand, gave him a little smile and walked away from the hall.
Everything...it's just too much.
What's happening to me right now is just too much and I wanted to wake up.
"...Yatsuiko-chan...I...will always admire you! I will be there to support you, okay? Do your best!"
Too much.
This is too much.
I knew it.
"This is only a dream."
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"Sugoii~ Romance is all over the place, right, Yatsuiko-chan?" The cake shop cashier looked at the vicinity with huge amazement.
"Oi..." Kusano-kun scuffed my hair as he looked at me with concern.
"I bet Yatsuiko-chan had a bad dream, huh? Oi, smile!"
"Eh... she's with her camera today! That's nice!" The cashier jumped in front of me to check out my camera.
"I-I'm going to the cemetery...Excuse me..."
I stormed out of the shop and walked briskly to the cemetery. It's Valentine's Day but this day marks the first death anniversary of my best friend. Also, it had been months since I last used my camera. I couldn't help but be melancholic.
The cemetery seemed empty and as I walked towards the grave of my friend, I saw a guy about my height stand near the cherry blossom tree next to my friend's grave.
Curious, I walked faster and because of carelessness, I tripped on a banana peel.
"Ouch!"
The boy then flees toward my direction to help me.
"Are you okay?"
Still hurt, I touched my back first to see if it's still okay.
"I fell flat on the ground, am I supposed to be okay?!"
I looked up and saw him.
"Pinch me, please."
He pinched my arm.
"Ouch!"
"Are you okay?"
"You pinched me, am I supposed to be okay?"
"Eh~! Gomen...gomen... Um... I better get going now. I just visited a friend... Sumimasen..."
I witnessed Chinen Yuri gracefully leave the cemetery and even though I still haven't recovered from what happened... I grabbed my camera and took a picture of his silhouette slowly fading away...
"Chinen-kun!" I shouted across the cemetery, having no idea if he could still hear me or not.
"We'll see each other again, okay?"
For the first time after so many years, I found myself smiling.
Hope suddenly filled my heart.
I thought meeting him in real life is impossible.
This encounter surely gave me the feeling that somewhere, someone thinks of me and I was never alone.
Yay for photographer Chii~ x3
END!
Gomen. I know it's badly written. My mind is on a rush. SAREE SAREEE ;u;
But I do hope you enjoyed it even for a bit. ><