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When Bebe died, I cried so much I thought I’d run out of tears. I felt like I would never stop.
When my mom god cancer, I didn’t cry much.
When my grandma died last year, I didn’t cry much. I cried once, with one person. Other than that, I didn’t cry all that much.
Now… I feel like I can’t stop crying again. It’s like everything is depressing and nothing makes me happy. It’s this endless cycle right now. School, homework, sleep. School homework sleep. Then, when I take a break from homework…. I’m crying.
Someone needs to freaking make this stop, because so far, all of my attempts have been absolute failures.
Please, I am on my knees. God, make this stop. Make life clear to me again. Make me understand. Make me happy. Make me less selfish. Make me not confused anymore. Make everything okay. Make me stop all this crying. Make school not hell. Make homework not purgatory. Make the tears stop. I need you. I need help. I admit it, I am not perfect. I am a sinner and I need help. I can’t do this anymore. I just don’t know what to do. I tried. I failed. I need help. Please.
please.
Do you remember the 21st night of September?
Love was changing the minds of pretenders
While chasing the clouds away
Our hearts were ringing
In the key that our souls were singing.
As we danced in the night,
Remember how the stars stole the night away
My thoughts are with you
Holding hands with your heart to see you
Only blue talk and love,
Remember how we knew love was here to stay
Now December found the love that we shared in September.
Only blue talk and love,
Remember the true love we share today
That is so.... I loved that song. Now? I HATE it.