In Memory of Lisa.....
Well what do ya know...I'm back...and so soon.
Anyways...a week ago Saturday, my sister commited suicide. She was 49 and still beautiful, and looked GREAT for her age, but she was on a mission and determined to carry out her plan. She was a heavy duty alcoholic and didn't want any help, so there was nothing anyone could do...she was determined. Bottom line...She O.D'd on whiskey and prescription drugs. So aside from her costing me lots of money...cremation...and all that morbid stuff...she is gone. and I will miss her forever. She raised me, she helped me grow into an adult. And the worse thing of all is that my mother committed suicide at the same age. God, I hope it's not genetic.
I hate to sound selfish or greedy, but her daughter remained silent...until all the bills were paid....and then decided to come forward and claim everything of my sisters. Of course she is the rightful heir...but Yes this pisses me off, becuz my dad, who is 87 years old could not afford this and i put out a great deal of money...and after all the bills are paid...her daughter decides to come forward and claim about 30,000 in diamonds and a 2000 Chevy Camaro that had all been left to me as the next to next last of kin. But all those dreams of having a car and maybe a little money in the bank...finally...are gone.
I really didn't want anything, although the car would have been nice...since I don't have one...but all the diamonds were put...by me....into a safe deposit box and saved for the daughter. I'm not a greedy person by nature, but after all my expenses...which I had to borrow...well...it's all gone now and the only memories i have are the ones in my head.
and quite honestly i think this sucks...BIG TIME!!! But we all know how families and friends get when someone dies...they get GREEDY! Sad but true. So i mourn her loss in silence and try to deal with all the tricks God has played on me. And the really ironic thing is that the funeral home lost her ashes in the mail...So just like my sister was in life, she remains in death...a runner...always running away from her problems and the rest of the world.
Ok...so she's dead and i have nothing but memories...and thats quite enough...i just can't believe her own daughter would turn out to be such a greedy 22 year old. I guess it's quite obvious that the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
So enough with that...although i have so much more to say...I'm afraid of sounding repetitive...So if you remember me...remember...I have been a good and honest sister, and i will miss her forever.
Other than that, my life is quite boring. I am working at a restaurant amd barely getting by...a long cry from where i was 3 years ago. But I still have my drives and ambitions and not even 2 suicides in a family of 4 is not going to ruin my life. I remain optimistic and hopeful that i WILL BE OK!!!
life goes on and so do I. And Danny loves me forever...so he says anyways...he says he's to old to be out there looking for that perfect little hottie, and has been kind enough to take me into his arms and his heart and help me with all this bullshit. And NO...he has not been abusive ever since I sent him to jail...he has been the kindest sweetest man I've ever known.
Someday I will write professionally again and have my own column again...and my life will go on, and believe it or not...I AM HAPPY!!! Or at least trying to be...given the present circumstances
so I guess thats it for now...hopefully i will get back to this computer and be able to get back...on a regular basis...to you guys!
I still love you all and miss you all and i wish i had a computer of my own, so I could be in constant contact with you all. I miss not having a computer and i miss live journal.
Y'all be good now ya hear!!! I wish i had an e-mail so I could contact y'all, and you could contact me...but for now, thats just not going to happen. So just rest assured that I am happy and healthy and I really do miss my live journal. And life is as good as one could expect it to be after a stupid selfish person...named Lisa...to try and take away my happiness. And the bottom line...she cannot UPSET my life anymore!!!
as always...
peace my friends....and remember to love each other. Life is to short to be taken for granted.
susan.....................
Hasta la vista baby...at least for now...
Anyways...a week ago Saturday, my sister commited suicide. She was 49 and still beautiful, and looked GREAT for her age, but she was on a mission and determined to carry out her plan. She was a heavy duty alcoholic and didn't want any help, so there was nothing anyone could do...she was determined. Bottom line...She O.D'd on whiskey and prescription drugs. So aside from her costing me lots of money...cremation...and all that morbid stuff...she is gone. and I will miss her forever. She raised me, she helped me grow into an adult. And the worse thing of all is that my mother committed suicide at the same age. God, I hope it's not genetic.
I hate to sound selfish or greedy, but her daughter remained silent...until all the bills were paid....and then decided to come forward and claim everything of my sisters. Of course she is the rightful heir...but Yes this pisses me off, becuz my dad, who is 87 years old could not afford this and i put out a great deal of money...and after all the bills are paid...her daughter decides to come forward and claim about 30,000 in diamonds and a 2000 Chevy Camaro that had all been left to me as the next to next last of kin. But all those dreams of having a car and maybe a little money in the bank...finally...are gone.
I really didn't want anything, although the car would have been nice...since I don't have one...but all the diamonds were put...by me....into a safe deposit box and saved for the daughter. I'm not a greedy person by nature, but after all my expenses...which I had to borrow...well...it's all gone now and the only memories i have are the ones in my head.
and quite honestly i think this sucks...BIG TIME!!! But we all know how families and friends get when someone dies...they get GREEDY! Sad but true. So i mourn her loss in silence and try to deal with all the tricks God has played on me. And the really ironic thing is that the funeral home lost her ashes in the mail...So just like my sister was in life, she remains in death...a runner...always running away from her problems and the rest of the world.
Ok...so she's dead and i have nothing but memories...and thats quite enough...i just can't believe her own daughter would turn out to be such a greedy 22 year old. I guess it's quite obvious that the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
So enough with that...although i have so much more to say...I'm afraid of sounding repetitive...So if you remember me...remember...I have been a good and honest sister, and i will miss her forever.
Other than that, my life is quite boring. I am working at a restaurant amd barely getting by...a long cry from where i was 3 years ago. But I still have my drives and ambitions and not even 2 suicides in a family of 4 is not going to ruin my life. I remain optimistic and hopeful that i WILL BE OK!!!
life goes on and so do I. And Danny loves me forever...so he says anyways...he says he's to old to be out there looking for that perfect little hottie, and has been kind enough to take me into his arms and his heart and help me with all this bullshit. And NO...he has not been abusive ever since I sent him to jail...he has been the kindest sweetest man I've ever known.
Someday I will write professionally again and have my own column again...and my life will go on, and believe it or not...I AM HAPPY!!! Or at least trying to be...given the present circumstances
so I guess thats it for now...hopefully i will get back to this computer and be able to get back...on a regular basis...to you guys!
I still love you all and miss you all and i wish i had a computer of my own, so I could be in constant contact with you all. I miss not having a computer and i miss live journal.
Y'all be good now ya hear!!! I wish i had an e-mail so I could contact y'all, and you could contact me...but for now, thats just not going to happen. So just rest assured that I am happy and healthy and I really do miss my live journal. And life is as good as one could expect it to be after a stupid selfish person...named Lisa...to try and take away my happiness. And the bottom line...she cannot UPSET my life anymore!!!
as always...
peace my friends....and remember to love each other. Life is to short to be taken for granted.
susan.....................
Hasta la vista baby...at least for now...