Hard thinking
Let me start this off by telling evrybody that i broke my toe nail and it hurts really bad. Anydang way, Im so excited, Natalie asked me to go to gulf shores with her for four days. And of course I sai HECK YA! I need break, I feel so stressed all the time. Im going to Natalies house agian friday and we are going to go swimming hehe and then go to the movies I think, and pick up some HOTT GUYS lol. NOT! There are no cute guys that work at the movies well except one guy I take that back.....again anyway I missed XLT once agian. I thought I would make it but for some reason it is harder to say good bye to someone then I thought. And I thought later on you know how many times you say good bye to someone in a day? Your parents, friends and I got to thinking about how you expect or you know that you will see that person agian. JADE> you remember when Ronney died and we were really sad but most of all upset and mad at ourselves for being such bitches to him in basketball.....and when we went up there to see him we really didnt cry, and even through the whole service we didnt really either, but when we left the church we started to cry. it was the wierdest feeling to me, it was like we saw him and id didnt hit us that he was really gone untill we turned away and left. i hate that feeling more than anything in the world. and thats how i felt. there are so manty people i miss... and then I started to remember all the fun times I had with Ronney, like the one time at one of our games it was the beginning of the third and we had just switched goals and someone was taking the ball out and they passed it to me and STUPID DITZY ME went and shot the ball for the other team.... and then ronney called time out he grabbed me by the neck and he said, "allison...were is the goal?" and i pointed to it. the he said, " allison were is the other teams goal?" and i pointed to it. then he said " get your ass back in there and do it for us this time" and i didnt want to go back in because of coarse i felt stupid. But that was one of the best games i ever played after that. isnt it funny what you remember? the point is when i went to the studio for the last time I was really angry at her. I started to blaim everything on her. And I only remembered the bad things that happened. And now that I think about it ever person who has died close to me i get mad. I start to think about only the bad.Not the good. now i Know the reason for the word goodbye.
Ronney was a tight ass guy. And for some reason people hated him and made him mad and thats all they saw was him mad all the time. And I have to admit I thought that to. But he loved everyone.
Sorry I have to tell another story a good one though, this is so sweet, its true love: Me and Ronney got really close and we talked about everything, like my grandpa(aka GROPPY) Me and Ronney were sweeping the floors before the game as always, I alwaysed wanted to ask him about his big gold ring that he wore with dimonds all in it, it was PIMPED out, he was really bling blingin if you know what im sayin lol, and it hurt like hell when he hit you in the back of the head with it, which happened quite alot with me. well we were sweeping and he asked me what guys were I after and I told him I had a boy friend who at the time was Sam lol. He hated Sam with a passion because he was on the boys team and he would always catch him trying to talk to me behind the stage in the curtains and he also left the bathroom water running in the gym and Ronny had to clean it up(good bf huh lol) well he kept going on and on about how he first meet his wife and how her parents didnt like him and so on and so on, and i asked about her and he stopped and said " She was the only woman i truely loved" and he went on about he would never take off his wedding ring no matter what. she was a part of him, and you could tell they were truly IN LOVE. he asked me if i had ever been in love, and i didnt do anything but smile at him. I didnt know what to say at the time, and i wish he was here for me to give him that answer now and see what he thought about it. he was always good at soving problems. and i think about what he said to me everytime im down. and when he died and my mom told me i was mad. I was mad that he left me and everyone else. but when i left the funeral with jade the reason i cryed was not because i wasnt going to see him agian, but because he was with his wife who he love more than anything and now he had what he truly wanted. Love. he never re married even though his wife had been gone from him for more than 10 years and he still stayed faithful to her. NOW WOW ISNT THAT SOME CRAZY STUFF. aLLiSoNrAcHeL
Ronney was a tight ass guy. And for some reason people hated him and made him mad and thats all they saw was him mad all the time. And I have to admit I thought that to. But he loved everyone.
Sorry I have to tell another story a good one though, this is so sweet, its true love: Me and Ronney got really close and we talked about everything, like my grandpa(aka GROPPY) Me and Ronney were sweeping the floors before the game as always, I alwaysed wanted to ask him about his big gold ring that he wore with dimonds all in it, it was PIMPED out, he was really bling blingin if you know what im sayin lol, and it hurt like hell when he hit you in the back of the head with it, which happened quite alot with me. well we were sweeping and he asked me what guys were I after and I told him I had a boy friend who at the time was Sam lol. He hated Sam with a passion because he was on the boys team and he would always catch him trying to talk to me behind the stage in the curtains and he also left the bathroom water running in the gym and Ronny had to clean it up(good bf huh lol) well he kept going on and on about how he first meet his wife and how her parents didnt like him and so on and so on, and i asked about her and he stopped and said " She was the only woman i truely loved" and he went on about he would never take off his wedding ring no matter what. she was a part of him, and you could tell they were truly IN LOVE. he asked me if i had ever been in love, and i didnt do anything but smile at him. I didnt know what to say at the time, and i wish he was here for me to give him that answer now and see what he thought about it. he was always good at soving problems. and i think about what he said to me everytime im down. and when he died and my mom told me i was mad. I was mad that he left me and everyone else. but when i left the funeral with jade the reason i cryed was not because i wasnt going to see him agian, but because he was with his wife who he love more than anything and now he had what he truly wanted. Love. he never re married even though his wife had been gone from him for more than 10 years and he still stayed faithful to her. NOW WOW ISNT THAT SOME CRAZY STUFF. aLLiSoNrAcHeL