Alix
I am amazed by her dedication to this day and what it means for me. I always receive something from them on this day, her birthday. This time around a picture of us in the hospital, this day 13 years ago, with 'If I could sit across the porch from God, I would thank him for sending me you...' etched onto a beautiful frame.
I am usually happy at this day, thankful for the family that were complete strangers, yet were going to have this life inside of me to call their own.
I AM thankful for them, I didn't mean that to sound as if I wasn't. They are 2 of the most amazing people I have ever met and I'm sure.....ever will.
I am sad today, though. I am sad with 'what could have been', Ashleigh having an older sister that she would simply adore. I wonder will I ever meet her face to face to explain. I don't think there could ever be enough words. Will she hate me?
I am very sad today.... I miss her so much. The sad and rainy weather doesn't help, yet it soothes. Does she like the rain as much as I do?
When will I tell Ashleigh about her? How will she feel about it? One thing I am not is ashamed and I never will be.
Happy Birthday, Alix.... I love you. I hope someday I can tell you face to face how special you are.
I am usually happy at this day, thankful for the family that were complete strangers, yet were going to have this life inside of me to call their own.
I AM thankful for them, I didn't mean that to sound as if I wasn't. They are 2 of the most amazing people I have ever met and I'm sure.....ever will.
I am sad today, though. I am sad with 'what could have been', Ashleigh having an older sister that she would simply adore. I wonder will I ever meet her face to face to explain. I don't think there could ever be enough words. Will she hate me?
I am very sad today.... I miss her so much. The sad and rainy weather doesn't help, yet it soothes. Does she like the rain as much as I do?
When will I tell Ashleigh about her? How will she feel about it? One thing I am not is ashamed and I never will be.
Happy Birthday, Alix.... I love you. I hope someday I can tell you face to face how special you are.