So I am 27
I really don't like the sound of that. It is just so OLD sounding. (don't hit me) This year has really been a bad one for me, reading my posts so far I really must sound like an Emo kid sometimes. I got divorced and left everything that I spent the past 3-4 years building behind. I realized that you cannot reconcile any sort of relationship when your partner wont trust you, and them believing rumors before asking you is just fucking retarded proof that they never will trust you. So I just had to give up on that life, I have no money, which considering how hard I work is a very sad thing. I had a cancer scare of a while, that I'm not even positive is fixed yet. That really messed me up eternally for a while, I had only told Thomas about it for a long time because I was so worried and distraught.
I lost a lot of my friends towards the end of last year, and the rest with my divorce. I did make new "friends" who, I decided were too drama-filled to even consider being friends with. Which came around about 3 days before they decided I didn't fit into their group. If it weren't for Sparr I probably would have just been stuck hermiting away in a rotten relationship slowly dying on the inside, I owe him a lot and consider him probably the best friend I've had in years. He is also my longest friendship at this point, two reasons why I love him and would do anything to help him.
I got to know Thomas in the mix, who saved me. I don't know what would have happened, where I would be if it weren't for him. There is a good chance I would have moved to NC to live with my parents and just dissappeared totally from the world. He was there for me when I got divorced, he was there when I needed a place to stay and he says I am the best roommate he's ever had and refuses to give me to Sabrina and Wendie, which makes me smile.
Things have certainly been looking up the past couple of months, I met Andy, who i just adore to pieces. We've had so much fun together, going to the faire and watching movies, playing video games and stuff it has been a great thing for me. I have such a great time just hanging out with him. His family is great, they are very nice to me too.
I miss Nashville sometimes, those peoples are my favorite friends these days and I wish I could see them more often. If I could afford the gas and had a free weekend I would be up there in a heartbeat to just hang out at the flying saucer playing pool or go to Sot's house for a party. I miss New York and the people that I know who live there. Especially Ruby and Jenn. I miss hanging out with them, going to bars and just being crazy and young together. There is never enough time to do what I want to.
My sewing has been going much better, even though the ICG group was sort of disbannded after we realized that putting up with the ICG isn't worth our time and effort. I haven't gotten together with our people in a while, and feel very disapppointed in myself for letting everyone down. But as much time and effort I did put into trying to get some feedback there really didn't seem to be enough interest in a group to persue it too much more. I have been making outfits left and right and getting inspired more and more. I sew on days when i'm not with Andy to make myself feel better and less alone in the world.
I guess out of all of this, I am hoping things will stay on this upward slide and continue to get better for me. I have stopped crying at night. and I can just dismiss the first half of 2009 as a breif unlucky streak, or something.
I lost a lot of my friends towards the end of last year, and the rest with my divorce. I did make new "friends" who, I decided were too drama-filled to even consider being friends with. Which came around about 3 days before they decided I didn't fit into their group. If it weren't for Sparr I probably would have just been stuck hermiting away in a rotten relationship slowly dying on the inside, I owe him a lot and consider him probably the best friend I've had in years. He is also my longest friendship at this point, two reasons why I love him and would do anything to help him.
I got to know Thomas in the mix, who saved me. I don't know what would have happened, where I would be if it weren't for him. There is a good chance I would have moved to NC to live with my parents and just dissappeared totally from the world. He was there for me when I got divorced, he was there when I needed a place to stay and he says I am the best roommate he's ever had and refuses to give me to Sabrina and Wendie, which makes me smile.
Things have certainly been looking up the past couple of months, I met Andy, who i just adore to pieces. We've had so much fun together, going to the faire and watching movies, playing video games and stuff it has been a great thing for me. I have such a great time just hanging out with him. His family is great, they are very nice to me too.
I miss Nashville sometimes, those peoples are my favorite friends these days and I wish I could see them more often. If I could afford the gas and had a free weekend I would be up there in a heartbeat to just hang out at the flying saucer playing pool or go to Sot's house for a party. I miss New York and the people that I know who live there. Especially Ruby and Jenn. I miss hanging out with them, going to bars and just being crazy and young together. There is never enough time to do what I want to.
My sewing has been going much better, even though the ICG group was sort of disbannded after we realized that putting up with the ICG isn't worth our time and effort. I haven't gotten together with our people in a while, and feel very disapppointed in myself for letting everyone down. But as much time and effort I did put into trying to get some feedback there really didn't seem to be enough interest in a group to persue it too much more. I have been making outfits left and right and getting inspired more and more. I sew on days when i'm not with Andy to make myself feel better and less alone in the world.
I guess out of all of this, I am hoping things will stay on this upward slide and continue to get better for me. I have stopped crying at night. and I can just dismiss the first half of 2009 as a breif unlucky streak, or something.